aeryka

so friday night i started a mosh pit at the bar. it was an ozzy tribute band called blizzard of oz. i was the only girl. i kept charging people. i did fall down. i kicked mutherfucking ass. i was pretty smashed. the whole bar was filled with attractive men in tight jeans, leather jackets, with long hair and in a band. i was kinda drooling and felt very at home. my neck is killing me from headbanging. nothing makes me feel more alive than a fucking pit. a stranger told me im crazy. my new friend deadjebus helped me remember what i drank ((i DO NOT remember those shots but it does explain my loss of cash)), made sure i got home alright, and even made me breakfast in the morning. biscuits and gravy....yum. hes my new friend. he pretty much as awesome as me. and hes one of those long haired, leather clad boys....

and he has a car that makes me wet. my drunk ass almost faked an orgasm in the parking lot just to explain to the masses how much i love it. 1985 trans ams with T tops. ::melt!:: i get all tingly just thinking about it.

i love when i meet new people because then i can tell them all the shit ive told everyone else before. and they listen. and he talks too so thats nice cuz some people just dont talk. ((go pinch him for me))

so im working right now. yep 4:30am and im working.
why? cuz i needed a job. im a desk attendant. pretty much the most useless, boring, simple, job there could possibly be. im pretty much here to keep the drunks out of the lobby....

o a hot boy in a leather jacket just walked upstairs...

....and call the RA's when someone is stupid and locks themself out of their apartment at odd hours. i get paid to fuck around on the internet, do hmwk, read, and watch movies. figured id get paid for it since if im home thats often what im doing anyway. the hours kinda blow and im sacrificing a night at the bar but i think thats ok since im getting paid. makes my mom happy too. but man these hours blow ass. so my shifts are the 5-12am saturday night. then i get 4 hours off. i went and got food and got lost in the fog on back roads to deliver a gyro. thennnnn i come back at 4am and sit till 8am. thennnn monday morning i have the 4-8 shift again. heres the kicker, i have class at 9am. so my mondays will start at 3am and end around 2pm. talk about hating mondays. im gonna talk to them tho cuz its kinda bullshit and my boss said she wouldnt do that to me.

my birthday is in one week! if you feel so inclined to send love here are some suggestions
im not sure what im doing. i have to get rid of these shifts for work. my parents might come down. i know some point over the weekend i will be getting a birthday lap dance at the strip club. mmmm strippers smell good.

for anyone who hasent heard, the shootings at NIU. valentines day a guy walked into a lecture hall and opened fire with a shotgun. killed 5 students several others injured. well that the super short version. really sad. i have a few friends there. it didnt really phase me at first. i kinda shrugged and was like ok someone else went crazy. ::twirls finger in air:: then today i was reading an article about the shooter and the victims and they were all from the chicago burbs. like around where im from. totally brought it home. scared the shit out of me and made me super sad. i guess its affecting everyone around me more cuz its in our state. it isnt on the other side of the nation. its in illinois. it could happen at siu. i could happen at eiu. it could happen.

m really sick of being allergic to nickel. makes my belly not too sexy.

so this is what comes out of my head when all i have to listen too is the hum of the vending machine and the turning on of the heat. meh...

im fucking tired. and i have 3 more hours.

want to pass out
so bad
in your bed


Juno is downloading. i think its buffered enough to start watching.
talk to you all soon.
see some of you sooner.
love you all.