aeonblack6

When I walked out the door with the only belongings I really felt a need to have, and my mom brought the rest of the stuff she thought I might want later. When I met a girl I knew nothing about and loved everything about and we made love for the first time, and when I told her I couldn't handle being with her anymore. When my close family and friends thought I was going to kill myself, but truthfully I was just frustrated with some girl's yuppie talk of how to cure depression. It was when I realized that depression isn't something you try to cure, it's something you accept and embrace into your life and you make the best of things. When I left the country by myself and still managed to find a piece of where I came from...and I later realized that a piece of me would always stay there. It's when I discovered that it was okay for me to write even though i'd never taken formal classes for it. When I realized that this applied to everything I do and could do. Sometimes it's more than a talent, it's more than ambition, it's just a feeling or an idea that needs to get out, and I suppose that I have gotten some things out. When my best friend moved in with me and we reconnected to being best friends, after so much time of just kind of seeing each other now and then. It was when I met another girl who I never truly felt comfortable with, and she cheated on me and lied to me. It reminded me of another girl who'd done the same to my best friend. When I got a new drivers license because my hair bothered me in the picture on my old license. When I watched an entire horror movie franchise in one sitting and truly learned to appreciate the subtle nuances of knife inflicted wounds. When I learned that 7.1 surround sound can complete a man, and that no matter how bad a movie is, if you watch it on a nice tv, it still seems better. It was all the girl's i've met and never really met, but still felt happy knowing that they were out there somewhere, and how sometimes they would make me feel what love can be. The places i'll go some day, and the people i'll meet. The things i'll do with my wife and kids, one day when I have a wife and kids. The things i'll create, both physical and non. I'll keep my fingers moving and my hand gripped tight until my eyes roll back and I say goodnight.