aenigma

I had a very long day today. i failed the damn mystery shop at work. all over a stupid technicality. i cost the entire staff a bonus of $100ish. they're not mad at me, but i'm still kinda new... and i feel so bad..

then the assistant manager got an attitude with me because i went out for a cigarette and she had stuff to do. well why didn't you tell me to wait before i told you i was going!!! bitch lacks communication and i get snapped at.

my alarm forgot to go off to wake me up from my in-between-jobs nap at 5. so i got to hallmark 10 minutes late. pam was mad at me. ooooo 10 minutes. wahh. that flustered me. i hate being late. and i hate it when my alarm forgets to go off. there's something wrong with my phone.

i indulged myself in too many.. unhleathy things tonight.. at least for a work night. and while i was smoking, i thought about what i was like a year or 2 ago. and i think to myself "what the hell is going on" and i sat in my car, alone. and i laughed. ....wtf mate.

i loooooove my cats. i really do. they've made me feel good when i'm kinda out of it. it's nice. i'm so retarded. ?

you keep calling..


goodnight,
lola