aenemated

i've made a few decisions in the last few days.

- that i absolutely MUST get my drums out to vegas
- that i shall be growing my hair out somewhat
- that i don't care if she's 18
- that i will work when i'm supposed to and not piss time away on various websites
- that i will update my portfolio SOON
- that i will be getting a 15" powerbook when action gaming comes through
- that i will make an attempt to become a published writer in some sense
- that if the previously mentioned item comes to fruition, i will be as inflammatory as ever
- that trixie is STILL the hottest girl to ever live

i think that's it. not sure why i was so compelled to share that.

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yes, so ... i'm very angry. and i don't know why. it may be the culmination of the end of a 5 month exodus, the fact that i'm broke and have been broke since september and that i'm not nearly drunk enough right now to go to sleep. i do believe i hate everything right now. i hate the fact that the economy is shit and i couldn't even GET a real job if i tried (designers in vegas aren't in huge demand). so here i am ... stuck schlepping computers around 10 hours a week because the store can't afford to give me more hours and being incredibly fucking miserable. my only solace right now is that i have A beer, a cute girlfriend and, um ... that's it. motherfucking son of a bitch.

and to top it off, i just left 3/4 a pack of smokes on the blackjack table because i was cursing the fact that i lost 20 bucks i probably shouldn't have. this town, which i love, would be so much more fun if i weren't such a broke, miserable bastard.

'sleep tight
for me
sleep tight
for me
i'm gone

and i hope it's a sweet ride ... '