so -- tonite i learned that a) i've been nominated to be a SB. you poor fools! you don't know what you're asking! b) there're cool light shows near area 51 and, being the tool fan i am, i will be forced to steer the stealth jeep in that direction c) the girl of my dreams likes computer geeks and i think she even thought i was purty d) the SG chat will be the death of me.
i'm listening to 'archers of loaf' and remembering the good things about chapel hill. what a great band they were. i can remember when i was a freshman at nc state and i got hooked up with the band i'd play in for the next 2 years -- they were all about archers. we did 'backwash,' 'might' and 'wrong' off icky mettle. great songs, all of them. if you're into indie shit, i highly reccomend them.
i had to remove my current 'crush' here recently as i learned that in my absence, she hooked up with some dude. bah! her loss, right? fucking women. i left a great one in NC. i miss her. i prepared myself for the loss, but it didnt much effect me till i found out i didnt have someone else to run to. is that bad? i mean -- she knew what the deal was. i was leaving. to better myself, right?
fuck, i do miss her. my sweet girl dawn. i still love you, sweetie. hope everything works out for you.
yeah, she'll never see that. she knows, though.
so yes -- sharkin again. i hate this. i like the comfort of a beautiful girl that thinks the world of me being around. starting over. blah. and what do you do when someone else has the one you want?
you're shunt.
i'm going to listen to 'old shoes' by tom waits and feel sorry for myself now.
XXOO
i'm listening to 'archers of loaf' and remembering the good things about chapel hill. what a great band they were. i can remember when i was a freshman at nc state and i got hooked up with the band i'd play in for the next 2 years -- they were all about archers. we did 'backwash,' 'might' and 'wrong' off icky mettle. great songs, all of them. if you're into indie shit, i highly reccomend them.
i had to remove my current 'crush' here recently as i learned that in my absence, she hooked up with some dude. bah! her loss, right? fucking women. i left a great one in NC. i miss her. i prepared myself for the loss, but it didnt much effect me till i found out i didnt have someone else to run to. is that bad? i mean -- she knew what the deal was. i was leaving. to better myself, right?
fuck, i do miss her. my sweet girl dawn. i still love you, sweetie. hope everything works out for you.
yeah, she'll never see that. she knows, though.
so yes -- sharkin again. i hate this. i like the comfort of a beautiful girl that thinks the world of me being around. starting over. blah. and what do you do when someone else has the one you want?
you're shunt.
i'm going to listen to 'old shoes' by tom waits and feel sorry for myself now.
XXOO
aenemated:
postscript to this depressing post. i was on the balcony smoking a cigarette and made a new friend. there's this hummingbird that tends to buzz around our complex. i've seen him before -- he flew up, hovered in front of me and then zipped away. this time -- he hovered in front of me and stayed. i said 'hello, little hummingbird -- lovely morning isn't it?' he didn't respond, but he didn't leave, either. he stuck around for me to finish my smokey treat and, as i turned around to come back inside, he zipped away.