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Wednesday Oct 02, 2002

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three new developments i'd like to talk about right now while i'm good and drunk. and no, one of them is NOT that i'm a multiple substance addict.

point one -- it does indeed seem that i'll be moving to LA come january. with or without GB. not only is my jessica there, so is my best friend from high school as well as one more chance to be a rockstar. beyond that, there're shitload of design jobs there, which i'd kill to get back in. my skills have suffered over the last several months as a result of inactivity and substance abuse. i need to get back into the game. i love it, i miss it but, as of now, i have very little reason to actually do it. the business ain't happening like we planned and we're all picking up other jobs. i'll be a salesperson at the soon-to-open apple store las vegas. coolio indeed, what with the 25% discount. but vegas just ain't the place for design and it's showing in any work i try to do. i love this town but maybe it ain't the best to make a living in.

point two -- i may be shifting my journal back to my website at cipher.nu. i miss having my own shit and i have numerous ideas for some cool backend functionality for it. further details as the situation warrants.

point three -- the most important. i played rockstar stud last night and brought home another stripper for good times. and i sincerely felt bad (not that i won't do it again) because, technically, jess is still my girlfriend and i love her, sincerely, deeply, madly. i'd give a finger or two to have her back in my bed every night but that likely won't happen. she'll be visiting next week (i'm going to LA for a few days and she's coming back with me) but it's not enough for me. i want her 24/7 like i had her before. when i go visit, i want to tell her exactly how i feel and, that when i move there, i want her to live with me and us do that game for a while. i want her forever, man -- it's fucked up. i've NEVER felt this way about some chick. there's just something about her that gets me all crazy and clingy and the like. i'm actually at a loss. how do you tell a girl you want her forever? am i saying marriage? christ, is she prepared for something like that? given she is, in fact, almost 27 and i'm almost 25 ... hell, my brother was married by now. but i honestly don't want to be *IN* anything else. random sex is no big deal ... it's fun and fills the void but DAMN i miss having her around. she pretty much lived with me for nearly two months and the only time i was bothered by it is when she was all sick and goddamn IMPOSSIBLE to deal with. it happens and i managed just fine. regardless ... i'm so totally in love with her. /sigh/ i'm gonna hit her with all this hefty shit when i go out there. we'll see how she responds.

um ... that's all. hugs and kisses and LA peeps, make fuckin room. you got vegas sleaze comin at ya.
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punt:
Dude...LA....Rock and Roll....Substance abuse...
That's a marriage in itself.
My Fibes kit is SUPER GREAT.
Best kit I've ever had.
I actually have 2...a 1974 clear kit, and a brand new smoked/clear kit- the newer kick drum is 2 inches deeper and it ROCKS 22x18 I believe.
I always say when I'm dead there's gonna be 2 coffins-
1- 6 feet deep, and 1- 25 feet deep....I'll be in the 6 footer.
My Fibes will be in the 25.
Oct 2, 2002
aenemated:
hehheh i heard that. my kit's an ayotte custom ... so sweet. beats the hell outta the DW's i had before.

friend of mine back in NC swears by fibes kick drums. he actually got a mapex endorsement and when they sent his kit, he took all the lug casings and the badge off the kick, put em on the fibes kickdrum and uses that with a mapex head on front.

fuckin beautiful.
Oct 2, 2002

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