Monday Aug 12, 2002

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yes, i've been detained as of late. busy with work and a lovely person. things will likely return to normal in due time.

or not.

muahahahaha!

hugs for dia. here's hoping she doesn't get too incredibly out of control and lay waste to the greater northern california area.
timmy:
I don't know. Dia strapped to the nines mowing down scumbag yuppies in BMWs would be fun to watch.
dia:
hmmmm?
hmmmm?
I'm only uh, you know, decimating uh, oh it's not California I'd even worry aboutsmile I'm like fallout... my evil reaches far far far.

Saturday Aug 10, 2002

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oh sunshine
the loving beauty
pass me by

should i waste my time?
in your valley?
beneath your sky?

i'm home

you move your own mountain
the trees have grown
trees have grown
now its over
now its over and i'm comin home

i'm home
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aenemated:
biggrin cool, it worked.
dia:
If you get any fucking hotter in your damned profile pics, of which I've saved every one, I am going to implode, thanks. You can deal with the remains. I would like to be cremated, here's your dustpan and little broom... prepare to sweep.

I recommend IV Versed in quantity. You can request it at the dentists. You have never felt that way before. Don't let them give you any weenie dose either, demand 7 cc's. Also, I'd recommend those nice 2 millie bars of Xanax... oh yeah.... oh yeeeeeeeeahhhh, let's get really drugged and...

fuck it, I'm so drugged up already, hah.

Wednesday Aug 07, 2002

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and i spent a good part of the evening curled up against jessica, inhaling paint fumes and thanking her for being her; the sweet smell of her hair in my mind and the warmth of her thigh on my hand.

'deep as the terrible sky
that you fell from
this
terrible beauty
is born
dethroned
i haunt
the salt mines

a living wound

weeping breathing...
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timmy:
You ain't chewing on 'dem funny cactus' are ya boy?
aenemated:
hehheh dont you worry about what i'm doin, boy!

Tuesday Aug 06, 2002

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it's funny, really, the way life is. the way things can actually be going pretty well -- so well, in fact, that people envy your station in life. the hours i keep, the freedoms i enjoy, the friends i have; when will it be enough? i have a lot to be ecstatic about. i know this. i could scratch a list of at least 20...
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timmy:
Kind of the same thing here man.

Spent the first 15 years of my life as a total fuck up. Then spent the next 10 trying to fix it. Days go by where I think, damn, not matter how hard I try, I'm still totally worthless. Then some more days go by where I think I'm king shit of fuck mountain. Not exactly bi-polar, just more reality and fantasy changing hands with each other.

Who knows. The only thing I believe in is that there is some equilibrium that can be reached. That usually keeps me going through the highs and lows.

Hope things work out with Jessica. But be careful man. I've been in the "save her from the shitty situation that she doesn't know she's in" position a couple of times (strippers and/or junkies mostly) and got burned pretty badly.
aenemated:
i know it pretty well too, dude. only thing is it's a little different this time -- it seems pretty clear she WANTS that. the other times i've gone to these lengths, at no point did it seem wanted, appreciated or effective. it already seems very different.

i spose we'll find out, eh?

Saturday Aug 03, 2002

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hehheh i'm stealing soultoasts idea ...

702-580-3053

someone validate me.
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jessica:
What's that about?
-the un-sad pirate smile
dia:
Now I have it! Beware!

Saturday Aug 03, 2002

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security ... what does this word mean in relation to life as we know it today? for the most part, it means safety and freedom from worry. it is said to be the end that all men strive for; but is security a utopian goal or is it another word for rut?

let us visualize the secure man; and by this term, i mean a...
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Friday Aug 02, 2002

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goddamn. i reiterate; goddamn. yes, last night could have been a great night. but i chose to sleep ALL FUCKING EVENING.

i wake up to two, count 'em, TWO voicemails from jessica. one apologizing for not returning my call sooner (such a sweetheart) and the other inviting me out to the bumpin club at hard rock. and i missed them! both!

so what do i...
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timmy:
If you keep messing with the Jam The Samurai you may insult his honor. And you know what that means ... Ritualistic Suicide!

What a fucking tard.
soultoast:
I'm gone two-three weeks at best and miss the whole JAM thing? Damn it! Nothing good ever happens when I'm around. Good to be back...prepare to be bored

Tuesday Jul 30, 2002

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god, not another one.

nikki tyler? sorta, but better. real boobies. not like the OTHER one that can pass for your normal girl on the street ... this one is porn star 24/7. she picked ME up, mind you. i'm not sure what to make of this one either, but i guess i've upped my odds.

it's really cool to sit in a restaraunt and...
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dia:
Another one! Not the Egyptian! You move fast, faster then me...!
timmy:
dork life must be good in Vegas if porn stars are picking us up. Vegas may deserve a gander when my contract is up in Colorado.

Monday Jul 29, 2002

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the osiris ani saith -- hail, ye who steal and crush heart-cases homage to you, o ye lords of eternity, ye masters of everlastingness, take ye not this heart of osiris ani into your fingers, and this heart-case, and cause ye not things of evil to spring up against it, because this heart belongeth to the osiris ani, and this heart-case belongeth to him of...
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Sunday Jul 28, 2002

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[bitch]

hey, check it out. a whole day has gone by and that rotten bastard jam hasn't posted another snarky comment.

amazing.

i'm not sure if i can make it without his psuedo-intellectual, archaic bullshit. it amuses me so.

i try really hard to sound enigmatic! i beg for people's opinions of me to placate my ego! love me! please?!

bah. you poor fool.

[/bitch]

chiquita:
BUAHAHAHA....yeah, i hear ya there.....
aenemated:
hehheh clearly i'm not alone.
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