I start my new job on monday morning and I got this lil job at modeling that I did today.
The clothing was between cool and weird, it was fun and it got me distracted and out of the house. The summer heat is near inferno in the afternoon, I live on a last floor and my bed is the top bunk, so I can't be closer to the ceiling D: it's like having you own personal sauna.
Yesterday I went looking for some clothing and I got some cool things, I'll take a picture tomorrow.
I was walking and I saw my good friend Griz and her gf, and a friend of theirs, they were haging out and I just stayed with them, idk how welcome I was at the beginning, because they didn't told me to hang out with them, so.. idk, at the end it was cool, we went to subway (wich was really good). I got the vibe that they were celebrating MF (the gf)'s new job she got, or maybe just hangin out.
I wish I was able to celebrate getting a job, but everyone is busy and they don't have time for anything, other than their gf/bf/dates, wich sucks, because I am the only single in the bunch.
My friend Milagros told me to hang out with her, to go have a drink, but she was going to be with her sort-of boyfriend and their friends, and I kinda know how tha plays out D: I'm usually just awkwardly sitting there and my friend is to preocupied on her date and the friends are just with the friends, so I'm like this awkward person sitting there. Plus I don't drink D: (usually).
Other than that I'm very nervous about monday morning, because I know no-one there, it's like the first day at a new school: you have no idea what to do and with whom to have lunch. I'ts going to be me being very socially awkward! I just hope I don't mess up :( a couple of days ago I was told by a good friend of mine, that my bad traits haven't changed at all, so I'm scared am going to mess everything up and end with no friends...
just that, a lil bit nervous and a lil bit lonely, and a bad combo of hormones (damn you hormones!!)
