As I stated in the previous thread, my friend Chad got married.
It was a wonderful reception in an amazing location in the country side.
The wedding itself was small, intimate, outdoors. My two guitarist friends provided music for the wedding parties, and both the bride and groom cried. It was a really happy moment... personally, I needed that immensely.
When I wrote my previous post... it was literally minutes after her funeral. I was broken emotionally. So this weekend completely away from all that happened really opened me up to what I could have done, what I did see but did nothing about, and what I can do better in the future. I personally have dealt with depression in my own life for over a decade, but it never got to the point where I would take my own life. So to have a friend do so really shook my mental and emotional core.
In the end, I lost someone I dearly loved, but I know she would want me to be happier and live a better life, and not to take a moment for granted. I mean i just saw two of my close friends get married and that feeling, that happiness feeling is what I'm clinging on to. Not just for my sake, but for hers.
