For quite a long time, I've concentrated my studies in Psychology and Sociology because of my interest in how the mind works and how society works. But lately... hmm really the last 15 years... something deep inside me has been eating away at my core.
I don't think I can ignore it anymore. Not when it's become this engulfing flame that burns with every second of my being. I believe that when you are deeply and truly passionate about something that you just have to go for it, no matter what people think, no matter what your friends or family might say, no matter the age or time. Time waits for no one, and I believe that it is time that I stop faking what I want to do. I'd rather enjoy my life doing something that I am passionate about and that I enjoy rather than something that just delivers a paycheck.
The things in my life have really opened my eyes about this...teaching drum lessons, performing live with praise band or whatever band I happen to play with, struggling with my playing, and a few other things...
I would rather spend 4 years honing my craft, learning my craft, and getting a degree that is useful to me, than 6-8 more years trying to do something I absolutely do not want to do. Trying to do something that would just feel like the "usual/typical thing to do."
Now I know why I haven't been able to really focus in psychology and... it's not because I can't do it, but because music is what I have to do. I have lived it, breathed it, experienced it in all my upbringing. It makes me happy...and I can no longer ignore it.
I would live regretfully if I did not make this decision. So I'm changing my major in college to Music Performance, and my ultimate goal is to doing recording sessions and open up my own drum studio for teaching and online lessons.