today has had huge ups and downs. starting with the down though. i went trough a couple of hours of serious doubt weather medicine even were the right carer for me to be persuing. and this needed some tears. coming to terms with the fact that you probably have wasted the last five years of your life on something that is not going to happens hurts. a lot.
but now i have changed my mind again. i am still in doubt weather i want to be a doctor or not. but i do want to continue studying medicine though. and, i feel kind of exstatic now. i just solved 8 of my 25 assignments. and 4 of them i have never been able to solve before. i say this is a pretty good move in the right direction. i am taking a dinner break now, and then back to the books. i feel rejuvinated. i don't know where the energy to do this came from. but i am gonna embrace it with my hole soul. hehe.
now cross your fingers for me from now on until the 20.th where my examn is. i need to pass this one. if not, they are gonna boot me from med. school. i want to at least be able to choose weather to stop or not myself!
but now i have changed my mind again. i am still in doubt weather i want to be a doctor or not. but i do want to continue studying medicine though. and, i feel kind of exstatic now. i just solved 8 of my 25 assignments. and 4 of them i have never been able to solve before. i say this is a pretty good move in the right direction. i am taking a dinner break now, and then back to the books. i feel rejuvinated. i don't know where the energy to do this came from. but i am gonna embrace it with my hole soul. hehe.
now cross your fingers for me from now on until the 20.th where my examn is. i need to pass this one. if not, they are gonna boot me from med. school. i want to at least be able to choose weather to stop or not myself!
Good luck on your examn !!!