Hallo Everyone! Merry Chrismukah. Anyone watch The OC? Yeah, yeah, I know, it's a silly show. But my roommate Margaret watches it, so I end up watching it too. After last Thursday's episode, I spent Friday drawing oune of those "relationship charts" on my whiteboard at work. I took a pic of it with my phone, now if I could only get it to upload...
Lot's of random things going on these days. Mostly Christmas related shopping.
So yesterday, I went shopping at Pier One for Christimas gifts and there was that girl there that I bought my nightstand from many months ago. I was sort of surprised she still worked there. She was cheerful and friendly and I remember how I used to try to think of excuses to go to Pier One way back when.
Later, I went to Newbury Comics to do some more shopping. I picked out a bunch of CDs for myself and for gifts - and I looked at them and thought, "wow, this is some good music". The Pixies, Radiohead, The Dresden Dolls, all great stuff. While waiting on line, I noticed a cute girl at the register. She was edgy, but not too edgy. When she rang up my CDs, she commented, "nice selection!" I mentioned that I had seen all those bands live (I'm a show off). She was impressed. She smiled. I should have talked to her some more. But instead,
I left. I felt like such a wuss.
A little over two weeks ago, I had a "fight" with Melissa. Well, it really wasn't a fight - she just was in a bad mood the whole week, and as much as I tried to comfort her she just blamed me for making her feel bad. You can read my last journal entry if you really care, lol. So, I decided I wasn't going to talk to or hang out with her anymore. She is such a negative person and has no respect for me at all. She wants everyone around her to be just as unhappy as she is. Most importantly, I don't think she even likes hanging out with me and I don't think I cheer her up at all when she is depressed. For about a week and a half, I didn't hear from her. And then she IM'ed me "Want to go see Closer sometime next week?" I wasn't around when she sent the IM and when I got back she wasn't on, so I didn't respond. I didn't hear from her again until last Thursday.
She IM'ed me and just jumped right into whining about her life as if nothing had happened two weeks ago. I tried to comfort her, but honestly, I just wanted to play video games.
The problem is that I am a pushover. When she asks me if I want to go to the movies, I say, "sure!" and I think "why not?" without wondering why I am wasting my time. So I came up with idea, which all my friends are laughing at right now. Note that I haven't actually done this (and I probably won't - it was just an idea and it's kind of mean.) I was thinking that next time when Melissa calls me up and asks me to hang up with her, I could just tell her I had a date. Yeah, a date, with, I dunno, "Becky" or "Erica" or "Jessica" or some other imaginary girl, that I met, "at work", "at the gym", "from a friend", "on the internet" or something. This girl could eventually become my real imaginary gf, which would pretty much mean I'd be rid of Melissa. Would this make Melissa jealous? Yes, a little bit, but that isn't the intent. Is this sadistic? Yes, a little bit, but I don't mean to be cruel. Would this work? YES! Here is why: Melissa isn't interested in my life at all. She has never been over to my apartment (and never would). She has never met my new roommates or any of my friends or co-workers. With Melissa, its always about HER. It's driving her around, going to her place, hanging out with just her. There is no chance she'd ever want to meet this imaginary gf, so there is no way she'd ever find out. Besides her ex-bf, we don't share any mutual friends. Secondly, it is important to Melissa that the guys she hangs out with are even bigger losers than she is. If I had a gf, I wouldn't be - in her opinion - her whole "world" would fall apart. How could such a "loser" have a gf - why is he happier than me? Why can't he come over and we can be miserable? Anyways, enough of that. It's a silly idea, more suitable for a sitcom. But sitcom's are fun, no?
Lot's of random things going on these days. Mostly Christmas related shopping.
So yesterday, I went shopping at Pier One for Christimas gifts and there was that girl there that I bought my nightstand from many months ago. I was sort of surprised she still worked there. She was cheerful and friendly and I remember how I used to try to think of excuses to go to Pier One way back when.
Later, I went to Newbury Comics to do some more shopping. I picked out a bunch of CDs for myself and for gifts - and I looked at them and thought, "wow, this is some good music". The Pixies, Radiohead, The Dresden Dolls, all great stuff. While waiting on line, I noticed a cute girl at the register. She was edgy, but not too edgy. When she rang up my CDs, she commented, "nice selection!" I mentioned that I had seen all those bands live (I'm a show off). She was impressed. She smiled. I should have talked to her some more. But instead,
I left. I felt like such a wuss.
A little over two weeks ago, I had a "fight" with Melissa. Well, it really wasn't a fight - she just was in a bad mood the whole week, and as much as I tried to comfort her she just blamed me for making her feel bad. You can read my last journal entry if you really care, lol. So, I decided I wasn't going to talk to or hang out with her anymore. She is such a negative person and has no respect for me at all. She wants everyone around her to be just as unhappy as she is. Most importantly, I don't think she even likes hanging out with me and I don't think I cheer her up at all when she is depressed. For about a week and a half, I didn't hear from her. And then she IM'ed me "Want to go see Closer sometime next week?" I wasn't around when she sent the IM and when I got back she wasn't on, so I didn't respond. I didn't hear from her again until last Thursday.
She IM'ed me and just jumped right into whining about her life as if nothing had happened two weeks ago. I tried to comfort her, but honestly, I just wanted to play video games.
The problem is that I am a pushover. When she asks me if I want to go to the movies, I say, "sure!" and I think "why not?" without wondering why I am wasting my time. So I came up with idea, which all my friends are laughing at right now. Note that I haven't actually done this (and I probably won't - it was just an idea and it's kind of mean.) I was thinking that next time when Melissa calls me up and asks me to hang up with her, I could just tell her I had a date. Yeah, a date, with, I dunno, "Becky" or "Erica" or "Jessica" or some other imaginary girl, that I met, "at work", "at the gym", "from a friend", "on the internet" or something. This girl could eventually become my real imaginary gf, which would pretty much mean I'd be rid of Melissa. Would this make Melissa jealous? Yes, a little bit, but that isn't the intent. Is this sadistic? Yes, a little bit, but I don't mean to be cruel. Would this work? YES! Here is why: Melissa isn't interested in my life at all. She has never been over to my apartment (and never would). She has never met my new roommates or any of my friends or co-workers. With Melissa, its always about HER. It's driving her around, going to her place, hanging out with just her. There is no chance she'd ever want to meet this imaginary gf, so there is no way she'd ever find out. Besides her ex-bf, we don't share any mutual friends. Secondly, it is important to Melissa that the guys she hangs out with are even bigger losers than she is. If I had a gf, I wouldn't be - in her opinion - her whole "world" would fall apart. How could such a "loser" have a gf - why is he happier than me? Why can't he come over and we can be miserable? Anyways, enough of that. It's a silly idea, more suitable for a sitcom. But sitcom's are fun, no?
I have been so busy with work and stressed out abit lately. I am actually excited to go and party tonight with bunch of my girlfriends!
How have u been?? Haven't talked to u in a while...