Hey all.
So I'm in a bit of a predicament (which was entirely expected by my past self to occur round about now). Some of you may know that I shot a set a couple of weeks ago with the lovely Lavezzaro. I really want to share it! I want to apply to be a Hopeful and upload it as a starter set to get my name out there, see what people think and gain the confidence to shoot again in the future. I don't expect that if I did upload this set that I would get very far with it, but I'm proud of myself and love the work Andrea did and for those reasons want to share.
The issue is my boyfriend does not like the idea of me uploading nude photos to the internet, and we've had several conversations about this in the past. I do understand his point of view, and know many of you will have experienced this problem in the past. I'm not even looking for any advice on the matter really, this blog is really just to express my feelings. I've wanted to apply for SG for years. I had a membership years ago and wanted to do it then, and my boyfriend at the time would have been happy for me to apply. He even took some photos of me, etc. Unfortunately my current boyfriend does not feel the same at all.
It's taken me years to have the courage and confidence to even consider having a photoshoot done, and thanks to Fische and Lavezzaro, I was encouraged to just go for it and it was a really great experience. Andrea made me feel really comfortable, guided me brilliantly and made it enjoyable, washing all my nerves away pretty much instantly. I was also lucky enough to bag a location, not knowing London or many people in it at all, thanks to rosycherrington. It's very simple, but very cute, and I really liked it.
I just love the whole idea of SG and want to be so much more a part of it. Obviously, it's great to hear positive feedback on beautiful photography (especially if you're the model!) and I love how varied and artistic all the sets are. I really envy the girls who've been able to go for it, and want to be one of them! My most favourite part about SG is the community. I love meeting new people and speaking to different personalities every day. I've made some good friends over here too. Also, I just want to have fun! Dressing up and undressing is a whole lot of fun. I love being naked! I love the human body and how different people modify theirs, making them each unique and individual.
I know I should just respect my boyfriends wishes and forget about the whole idea of applying, but it's one thing that I really want. I feel like I'm being selfish, but I also feel like I'm being stopped from doing something that I've wanted for a long time. I love my boyfriend, and I want to be with him. I care about his opinion and don't want to upset him. I just don't know what to do
Kiki xo
So I'm in a bit of a predicament (which was entirely expected by my past self to occur round about now). Some of you may know that I shot a set a couple of weeks ago with the lovely Lavezzaro. I really want to share it! I want to apply to be a Hopeful and upload it as a starter set to get my name out there, see what people think and gain the confidence to shoot again in the future. I don't expect that if I did upload this set that I would get very far with it, but I'm proud of myself and love the work Andrea did and for those reasons want to share.
The issue is my boyfriend does not like the idea of me uploading nude photos to the internet, and we've had several conversations about this in the past. I do understand his point of view, and know many of you will have experienced this problem in the past. I'm not even looking for any advice on the matter really, this blog is really just to express my feelings. I've wanted to apply for SG for years. I had a membership years ago and wanted to do it then, and my boyfriend at the time would have been happy for me to apply. He even took some photos of me, etc. Unfortunately my current boyfriend does not feel the same at all.
It's taken me years to have the courage and confidence to even consider having a photoshoot done, and thanks to Fische and Lavezzaro, I was encouraged to just go for it and it was a really great experience. Andrea made me feel really comfortable, guided me brilliantly and made it enjoyable, washing all my nerves away pretty much instantly. I was also lucky enough to bag a location, not knowing London or many people in it at all, thanks to rosycherrington. It's very simple, but very cute, and I really liked it.
I just love the whole idea of SG and want to be so much more a part of it. Obviously, it's great to hear positive feedback on beautiful photography (especially if you're the model!) and I love how varied and artistic all the sets are. I really envy the girls who've been able to go for it, and want to be one of them! My most favourite part about SG is the community. I love meeting new people and speaking to different personalities every day. I've made some good friends over here too. Also, I just want to have fun! Dressing up and undressing is a whole lot of fun. I love being naked! I love the human body and how different people modify theirs, making them each unique and individual.
I know I should just respect my boyfriends wishes and forget about the whole idea of applying, but it's one thing that I really want. I feel like I'm being selfish, but I also feel like I'm being stopped from doing something that I've wanted for a long time. I love my boyfriend, and I want to be with him. I care about his opinion and don't want to upset him. I just don't know what to do
Kiki xo
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I don't know what kind of relationship you're in with your boyfriend but you should open up to him and let him know how you feel and how you'd feel if you did or didn't do it. I'm sure you've heard this before but the base of any long lasting relationship is trust, and if you don't have that, it's very likely neither you or your boyfriend are
as happy as you'd like to be. And if that's the case, you should definitely change that, after all, nobody but you will be to blame if someday you regret not doing something you really, reaaally wanted to do.
Hope this helps a bit!
<3