wow....yeah ok.....i am back
i have been really busy with a bunch of stuff....haven't had a lot of time to post here...but here i am! it has been a crazy couple of months for me...but i think i fucking have my life back on track...which is a good thing.....i was seriously ready to fucking freak out.......i did have a mild melt down and luckily i have a wonderful best friend that was there for me and listened to me fucking cry and freak for about an hour! i don't know what i would do without her...seriously
i am going home to DC for a visit next week and i am sooooooooooo excited...i get to see family and friends that i miss sooo very much.....and i actually get to hang out with some new ones it will be good for me to go home and unwind a bit before coming back to my hectic life.....i might see things in a different light when i return...at least that is what i hope
in case some of you don't know...the main reason i moved out here was to get into the film industry.....i recently grad from film school and i want to write and direct music video......i did a music video for a band where i went to school and it made it into the film festival there......music video is something i have always wanted to do......for as far back as i can remember......so LA seemed like the place to come to start all of it
well.....LA is a rough place my friends....i mean i am not stupid....i knew i wouldn't come out here and instantly be doing film.....i mean shit.....there are HUNDREDS of peope like me out here for the same fucking thing.....i just need to get in line and fucking show people what i am fucking made of........this has been the main source of stress for me since i moved here
BUT...i have decided not to stress......it will happen......i know it will.....just got to get out there and fucking do it.....it may not happen today tomorrow or next year.......but it will happen.....it is all i have ever wanted
ever!
i have been really busy with a bunch of stuff....haven't had a lot of time to post here...but here i am! it has been a crazy couple of months for me...but i think i fucking have my life back on track...which is a good thing.....i was seriously ready to fucking freak out.......i did have a mild melt down and luckily i have a wonderful best friend that was there for me and listened to me fucking cry and freak for about an hour! i don't know what i would do without her...seriously
i am going home to DC for a visit next week and i am sooooooooooo excited...i get to see family and friends that i miss sooo very much.....and i actually get to hang out with some new ones
it will be good for me to go home and unwind a bit before coming back to my hectic life.....i might see things in a different light when i return...at least that is what i hope
in case some of you don't know...the main reason i moved out here was to get into the film industry.....i recently grad from film school and i want to write and direct music video......i did a music video for a band where i went to school and it made it into the film festival there......music video is something i have always wanted to do......for as far back as i can remember......so LA seemed like the place to come to start all of it
well.....LA is a rough place my friends....i mean i am not stupid....i knew i wouldn't come out here and instantly be doing film.....i mean shit.....there are HUNDREDS of peope like me out here for the same fucking thing.....i just need to get in line and fucking show people what i am fucking made of........this has been the main source of stress for me since i moved here
BUT...i have decided not to stress......it will happen......i know it will.....just got to get out there and fucking do it.....it may not happen today tomorrow or next year.......but it will happen.....it is all i have ever wanted
ever!
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