adrenalynne

i have a place to live! yay!
and i have a job! yay!

and i will probably be declaring bankruptcy, because i am really tired of paying into my debts and not having then go anywhere. blah.

i had some pretty serious boy drama when i came back from planting. the boy i thought cared about me was seeing someone else, and then she thought she was pregnant, and then she wasnt, and then he was all like 'we can be lovers again' and i was all like 'ok'
and now im not so sure. i dont think i want a lover. ive had too many of those. i would really like to have a relationship with someone, you know? ah, oh well... he already broke my heart once. im not going to let him do it again. so when he gets back from burning man, i'll have to tell him that i cant be with him. unless of course, he comes back and tells me he's seeing someone else, again. oh man ... this situation is just hilarious. i dont know why im so hung up on this guy ...

being able to turn off my feelings for people would be an awesome skill to have. i think im going to start working on that.