Login
Forgot Password?

OR

Login with Google Login with Twitter Login with Facebook
  • Join
  • Profiles
  • Groups
  • SuicideGirls
  • Photos
  • Videos
  • Shop
Vital Stats

adrastea

Florida

Hopeful Since 2010

Followers 2850 Following 2230

  • Everything
  • Photos
  • Video
  • Blogs
  • Groups
  • From Others

Wednesday Dec 07, 2011

Dec 7, 2011
0
  • Facebook
  • Tweet
  • Email
edit: two interviews down, one was just to go talk to the manger, and I got hired.
but i still want to try for in florida, closer to the beach.
and I have a BCS national championship football ticket! yayyy.
---
My life is only a whimsical of ideas.
I could write a book, one full of very random thoughts.
And it seems that when I lay down and close my eyes....every thought comes out of my head.
but i am far to tired at that point to write them down.

At times, I feel like I'm flying.
because time is going by so fast.
And other times, I feel like I'm at a stand still.

I live in a circle.
a constant repetition.
a repeat of ideas. words. actions. mistakes. phases. relationships. friendships. and more.
we all live in a circle, fuck that straight line.

Have you ever felt completely and utterly lost? Like your world just fades away. Or maybe have the want for it to fade? Because life doesn't seem to fully have a point. My heart hurts because I forget to breathe. As they say, without the correct breaththing oxygen is not perfusing correctly in your blood and without the proper oxygen to your vital muscles, pain will arise. But it's a burning, yearning, scared hurt. a heartache that never fades. one that i wish i could understand.

we
all
have
secrets

I once wanted to feel,
but now that I know what feeling is like...
I don't want to feel anymore.

If only I could escape, escape for a few days, minutes, seconds, just to disappear from this world from everyone to a place where peace and happiness were a constant reminder of why we live life.

Silence is powerful.
Silence means nothing.
Silence is everything.

I am not strong, I am only weak.
And I am far more scared of my actions.
If only I could sleep forever.
and just walk away.
I just need more sleep.

---

I love this song, always have and always will. it hits close to my heart.


---

She rode on angels wings
& had a heart that [did]n`t care.
She lusted what she couldn`t have then
wrote his name into the sky.
Her heart was miles long
But had many holes that
needed to be filled.
She told her goodbyes to only
find herself back where she began.
You knew her all too well,
because plastic smiles don`t stay long

a writing i found, from my 15 year old head.
it seems nothing has changed in my head.
and maybe it all has changed.

---
on another note, I graduate from nursing school in 10 days.
I have a job interview tomorrow, and one in Florida on the 22nd.
VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
stcyr:

SPOILERS! (Click to view)





It's very nicely written.
Truly.

AND,

congratulations (again) & good luck on the interviews.
I'm sure you're all kinds of impressive in person & that you would wow anybody.

Dec 7, 2011
baax:
Thanks for sharing your random poetic thoughts. They made my brain twist and spin a bit and I liked it. smile

My tiny back yard would surely make any donkey a sad donkey, but it would be perfect for a pygmy goat! Now, if there weren't all these goddamn city regulations getting in the way of my perfect plan... ARRR!!!

Good luck with your last interview! That's fantastic you've got a solid job prospect already.
Dec 8, 2011

More Blogs

  • 03.23.14
    7

    blahs.

    Life just kicked me in the ass...and I just want to go away. :…
  • 03.23.14
    5

    fuck my life.

    I just want to dig myself into a big fat hole and disappear. I just…
  • 02.24.14
    3

    I suck at blogs!

    Long time no see. I suck at blogs. haha. I haven't been on the…
  • 11.24.13
    2

    bahh!

    I really have no clue how to use this site now. :( It's changed a l…
  • 08.12.13
    5

    Tuesday Aug 13, 2013

    Xoxo. Life is busy right now. Hope everyone is doing well.
  • 06.08.13
    23

    Saturday Jun 08, 2013

    It's almost my birthday in 8 days. We are going to Tampa to Busch Gar…
  • 04.25.13
    16

    Thursday Apr 25, 2013

    I hate not having a computer....and my dudes is halfway broken. So I …
  • 04.02.13
    49

    Tuesday Apr 02, 2013

    Blah fuck. I lost the baby. I have to go for surgery tomorrow. P…
  • 03.10.13
    23

    Sunday Mar 10, 2013

    Read More
  • 03.05.13
    9

    Wednesday Mar 06, 2013

    Read More

We at SuicideGirls have been celebrating alternative pin-up girls for:

24
years
1
month
18
days
  • 5,509,826 fans
  • 41,393 fans
  • 10,327,617 followers
  • 4,616 SuicideGirls
  • 1,113,818 followers
  • 14,995,005 photos
  • 321,315 followers
  • 61,568,679 comments
  • Join
  • Profiles
  • Groups
  • Photos
  • Videos
  • Shop
  • Help
  • About
  • Press
  • LIVE

Legal/Tos | DMCA | Privacy Policy | 18 U.S.C. 2257 Record-Keeping Requirements Compliance Statement | Complaint / Content Removal Policy | Contact Us | Vendo Payment Support
©SuicideGirls 2001-2025

Press enter to search
Fast Hi-res

Click here to join & see it all...

Crop your photo