adrastea

Sometimes even when we are the most vulnerable we just have to hold on.

Wow. So sorry for the long delay of blogging. I told you it'd happen. Nursing school started back finally and lets just say it's hectic and busy.

First off, my computer decided the fan wanted to quit working so my stupid not even 7 month old lap top died. I had a warranty so it got shipped off. Luckily my old laptop that I gave to my mom after I fixed the virus on it, I am able to have as a back up computer. Because with school, we require our own computers for tests and such. stupid. and I don't think I could live too long without a computer anyways.

Mondays I have class from 8 am til 5 pm...plus whatever homework. Tuesdays and Wednesdays I have to drive an hour away to go to another hospital for clinicals from 2pm to 10 pm plus drive back. Then I have paperwork to do and sometimes other homework. Thursdays and Fridays lately have been more so my homework days but here soon Mental Health clinicals will be starting also and I'll be busy there too. Plus I have an online class with random online quizzes, discussion posts, etc to do. and my two other classes, the theory portion requires us to post discussion stuff, plus quizzes, case studies, etc, etc, etc. It's definitely a work load and almost too much. If you even barely get behind you're behind on everything. But on the good note, clinicals this year are amazing and my clinical instructor is wonderful...at least she doesn't have it out to get me like mine last semester.

I watched a man taking his last breath and right as we left, he passed away. It was one of the saddest things I've came across in the hospital so far. His family would not come for him. He was alone. His family signed for him to have no care once he started going. So all he could do was breath away, until his poor heart gave out on him. He knew what we were saying, and teared up. But he couldn't speak. And all we could hear was his breathing and see his eyes move. That is one of my huge fears. To die alone suffering in pain. At least for a little while we were there. And as we left, the nurses said that one of them went in there to check on him, she took his hand, and he took his last breath. That was something new for me.

Football starts this weekend. Ow. Roll Tide.

And other than that, I'm spending my life away in school or homework or studying.

Hope everyone is doing well.