I would never have been able to picture myself where I am today a year ago. Last year I was starting at University and I had an ego that I regret having every day. I was insecure about my body, I wasn't nice to my friends, and I was in a very toxic relationship. My partner was much older, and at times, wouldn't respect my body or my wishes. I would internalize my hurt and my worry and suppress it with drugs and alcohol. I was to worried to break it off because we were living together, and we were both starting school.
A year of struggle, pain, and self discovery is over. I have since kicked that no good man to the curve, and surrounded myself with people who respect me and fill my life with love. I have found purpose, and I have began to discover that I am better than who he made me, and who I thought I was. Every day I show my friends (and my 5 beautiful roommates) that they mean the world to me, and that they are my rock.
Aside from pursuing my SuicideGirls dream, a journey I began in April after I saw the Blackheart Burlesque, I have opened my own shop on etsy, I have become independent, I have bought myself my first beer! I have learned what it means to be romantically conflicted with another, and I have a shot with a beautiful girl I met over orientation week at my university.
I could not be happier with how everything's working out right now, and I just though I would update all you lovely followers, and let you know that you have helped me achieve so much that I could never have imagined. I hope that I do get the opportunity to become a SuicideGirl, but I know I won't be able to do it without you guys.!
ps. 2 more months and my set goes up!