july fades...insomnia 6:16am it's been hours. surgery tuesday...birthday wednesday....insomnia thursday....pain pills, well every day. the surgery was a success...didn't have to have a hysterectomy as expected. i can still reproduce!! fuck reproduction. why would i be so selfish as to reproduce when there are so many children who need to be adopted. glancing over at my flowers...sunflowers look so fake. not even a seed of...
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i finally uploaded some of my music to the internet. check out my site at www.myspace.com if you aren't a member of my space, you should become one. it's free and good fun, my site is http://www.myspace.com/theconfectionista let me know what you think....
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frontline99:
Happy Birthday!
contextual:
I listened to your song, it's great. Very haunting, meloncholy, very emotional. Thanks for sharing it.
Come check out a couple of my photo sets on my pics (Contextual and Apocalyptic Beauty), I'd like to share that with you.
Come check out a couple of my photo sets on my pics (Contextual and Apocalyptic Beauty), I'd like to share that with you.
so this weird thing happened. i went to bed a blonde and woke up a red head. no seriously, did someone change me while i was sleeping? i always wanted to go red. i think i like it. 
deanna:
it looks very cute indeed.
took some new pics. my new main picture was an accident actually. i don't know why it ended up cutting me in half. kinda neat though. been working on my music a lot lately.....suddenly inspired.
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adonis:
sing and acoustic/electric
trebo:
cool..I wish I had that talent to do either one...I can't even do both!...what type of music are you drawn to?
The Breath Before Speaking
The breath before
A butterflied fluttering pause
Of silence
Unspeakable, unreachable noise,
The cause
Frightful alliance.
The beginning and end
Restitution resolution.
A violent clash of heart beats and exhales
Filter through empty space.
Time is the only presence
Gifted sweet measures
Patterns of air
Sweep cross the horizon where
I am the corpse rotting in pleasure.
The breath before
A butterflied fluttering pause
Of silence
Unspeakable, unreachable noise,
The cause
Frightful alliance.
The beginning and end
Restitution resolution.
A violent clash of heart beats and exhales
Filter through empty space.
Time is the only presence
Gifted sweet measures
Patterns of air
Sweep cross the horizon where
I am the corpse rotting in pleasure.
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imperius:
I'm moving soon 
imperius:
i've heard, but i got the thingy for graduate school
much better this week. even got to have some hot kinky sex with my man. i love it when he yanks at my hair and gets me from behind. in other news, he got a bug in his eye while riding his bike and I convinced him to let me get it out. he tried for about five minutes. the fucker had lodged itself half...
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trebo:
Yes THAT IS TRUST...Now back to the sex.... ....
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madhatter32481:
Damn now that takes alot of trust, I dont know if I would trust my gf to do that for me. 
well i made it half a day at work today. felt great this morning, and my energy started dying down after only about two hours. just got home and had ice cream and percocet. everything always goes better with percocet. everyone loved the new hair....i think i like it too. there is this spanish guy that i helped with a loan at work who sent...
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trebo:
Hey Adonis...I would tell him and his sister that you dont want the gifts...Even if she is hotter than him 
...9 x out of 10 they expect someting in return...Just tell him that for respect out of my boyfriend I can't except anything more from you...Your sister yes!..you no!.. 
( just a little humor)...But something like that because if you continue...It could get out of hand...What a great combo btw...Percocet and ice cream! ...
...9 x out of 10 they expect someting in return...Just tell him that for respect out of my boyfriend I can't except anything more from you...Your sister yes!..you no!.. ( just a little humor)...But something like that because if you continue...It could get out of hand...What a great combo btw...Percocet and ice cream! ...
macska:
I wanna see your new hair.
i keep waking up early. i guess to take meds. can't tell a whole heck of a lot of difference in the pain yet. maybe it will get better? stopped coughing up blood. that must be a good sign. my day consists of waking up, eating, taking meds, back to bed, waking up, eating, meds, back to bed, waking up, (you get the picture). getting...
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niragram:
can you say percocet!!
captsparrow:
Damn, that sounds pretty serious. Hope you get better quickly.
not feeling so hot this morning. got up, and the pain is worse than yesterday. pissing blood and coughing up blood and walking like a fucking old woman. at least i've got my cute little night gown and cute new haircut. i've got pics up of my new haircut, check it out. it's kind of a 50's look....bob with bangs. really cute and looks great...
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imperius:
with benefits
hope you get better soon and stop hobbling like an old lady
hope you get better soon and stop hobbling like an old lady
trebo:
I like the new you..especially the pigtails ...I hope you feel better sweetie...need anything?
...I hope you feel better sweetie...need anything?guess what!! I'm already back on the net and sitting up straight from surgery! I'm all fucked up on drugs, but things went really well. sure i have a bladder disease, but the doctor says he was expecting a lot worse. so good for me. now i have five days to relax before going back to the corporate world..............who wants to come over and take...
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trebo:
oh oh oh oh pick me! *raising hand*....What you need is someone to fix a nice relaxing bath for you...Then when you get out of the bath ...a relaxing massage is next....Then I would tuck you in bed....and wish you sweet dreams...
imperius:
hehehehehehe....only if there are free drugs involved.
nah, just kidding...sure...anytime
nah, just kidding...sure...anytime
Thanks for the great comments about the photos. The nighttime certainly adds to the effect, as you said. I've gone back in the day and never had the same sort of magic come out of it.
Thanks for your other nice comment. Flattery will get you everywhere with me. You have beautiful eyes, sweetie. Is that me I see reflecting back in them in your profile pic?