july fades...insomnia 6:16am it's been hours. surgery tuesday...birthday wednesday....insomnia thursday....pain pills, well every day. the surgery was a success...didn't have to have a hysterectomy as expected. i can still reproduce!! fuck reproduction. why would i be so selfish as to reproduce when there are so many children who need to be adopted. glancing over at my flowers...sunflowers look so fake. not even a seed of realness. just like everyone. i have five incisions on my belly. new scars. but the most painful scars are those that HE left. the combination is treacherous...emotional and physical pain overlapping. "i dream to heal your wounds but i bleed myself"
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Thanks for the great comments about the photos. The nighttime certainly adds to the effect, as you said. I've gone back in the day and never had the same sort of magic come out of it.
Thanks for your other nice comment. Flattery will get you everywhere with me. You have beautiful eyes, sweetie. Is that me I see reflecting back in them in your profile pic?