Hey again i'm updating today because i took the day off from work and get to be home alone for a bit. I think i tried to explain why i don't post more often once and the puter locked up.
ofcourse you know i work, but i can't get on much when i'm home cause the woman doesn't know i have an account....well she doesn't know i pay for one. or maybe she does and just isn't saying anything. anyway i don't post when she's home less arguments.
i guess that makes me a bad person. i don't know.
I just realized the other day that while yes i love sara'h i don't think i want to marry her. yeah there are good times, but more and more she seams wholly pissed off at me. i don't want to spend my life like that. i'm sure i deserve some of her anger. but it's the anger i don't deserve that bothers me. she's not used to not haveing money. I've been there my whole life i don't know any other way to live. i can't talk about this with any of my friends who live here, due to biased opinions.
and i'm not ready yet to talk to her about any of this, i'm not sure how she will handle it. there's alot going on in the background that i can't explain about. suffice to say that her sanity is not all there. most of it is. but not all. bipolar i think.
ofcourse you know i work, but i can't get on much when i'm home cause the woman doesn't know i have an account....well she doesn't know i pay for one. or maybe she does and just isn't saying anything. anyway i don't post when she's home less arguments.
i guess that makes me a bad person. i don't know.
I just realized the other day that while yes i love sara'h i don't think i want to marry her. yeah there are good times, but more and more she seams wholly pissed off at me. i don't want to spend my life like that. i'm sure i deserve some of her anger. but it's the anger i don't deserve that bothers me. she's not used to not haveing money. I've been there my whole life i don't know any other way to live. i can't talk about this with any of my friends who live here, due to biased opinions.
and i'm not ready yet to talk to her about any of this, i'm not sure how she will handle it. there's alot going on in the background that i can't explain about. suffice to say that her sanity is not all there. most of it is. but not all. bipolar i think.
Well you got the right reasons for not being here,busy life and yeah same goes for me.
Well we all have that in question,whether our other half would be the person we vow to be with "forever"..I dont think there is someone we hope to be perfect out there..you gotta look at your faults too..whats the saying.."you dont know what you got till its gone"..Communication is key but if you arent truly happy then dont push yourself cause marriage is a serious thing and divorce is common.Good luck!