adhamlyn

So cool that you get to have your kids! Take lots of pictures. You'll be glad later.

Thanks for the poem.

glad to hear you've settled into your new place. And JPL rocked!

I didn't say I was the ONLY goth in town... just the gothEST person. Or at least the most foppish one. But, like I said, the bands I go see may not attract the Goth people. I only go when my all-too-normal friend asks me to go with her.

Awesome you got moved!

Hah, the glare in the picture is funny! I would have never noticed it otherwise though. And it better be good weather in Wales, I'm sick of this cold Spring we are having here in the Northeast as of late.

Well, I am pretty fucking happy at this point.

I'll ask my man about the vampire stuff. We're really not joiners, though, as I've said. We're about the most antisocial lot you'll find. Might be that Gen X thing... Don't know.

I'm really sensitive about Dracula. Gary Oldman did such a flawless portrayal that nothing else is ever remotely good enough. Dracula is a very personal thing to me anyway. I take it FAR too seriously. I don't like anything that doesn't live up to Gary Oldman's performance... and nothing ever equal's Gary Oldman's performances in my mind. I hated the actor they had as Dracula. I like the actor, I just didn't like him in that part. I didn't like the over-witchy Brides. I thought the writing was horrible and impossible to act well. The visuals were gorgeous, but it wasn't enough for me to float all the crapness. And, let's face it, I've hated Dr. Abraham Van Helsing for years. He's always been the Bad Guy to me. Hugh Jackman has never looked better. I will say that.

I always hated tag. I always hated most games. I was a weird kid. I'm a weird adult. What can I say? I was raised by weird people. My life has been painfully average, though. Hmmm... Well, maybe not so average, but quite painful. Hehe... *sigh*

Um, yeah... I can blame you and argue a little. Layin' it on a little thick aren't ya? You do remember that I am happily married, right?

Yeah, well, that was a bit more than a stroking...

Listen, I've been stalked, and harassed, and a number of other unpleasant things in my day and it usually started out with over-the-top compliments. You've given me plenty. It's not that I don't appreciate your admiration. I do, though I don't really understand it. I just can't have yet another crush turn into something scary. If this doesn't apply, then, I apologize, but I have a habit of making guys think I am encouraging them, when I am not. I'm just nicer than most women, I guess and it usually leads to a massive regret on both sides.

I'm not that hot... but I am a damn good photographer. I'm more curious as to why I don't have my own studio than I am as to why I'm not a model on here. Besides, as I said, that's the most of my body I'll ever post on here. I'm seriously thinking about being a music teacher. Naked photos of me on the net won't help that along any. I think these are "tasteful" enough to not bite me in the ass later.

I do appreciate your ardour of me. Thank you, as always.

I am, as we speak, another photo shoot with myself.

I'm so Victorian. I sure as hell could've been a model 100 years ago. Maybe posed for Klimt. He liked big-thighed girls. Or Mucha... better yet.

Theda Bera was a silent movie star who was a little darker than most. I would like to do a Lady Godiva shoot sometime. I grew up with horses. Maybe one day. I'd have to find a Frisian. They're the best Goth Godiva horses. They're the best horses all around, if you ask me. They're not cowboy horses. I grew up with cowboy horses. I loved them just the same. It wasn't their fault that my parents have bad taste.

Better get back to the shoot. The photog is getting impatient. ...hehe

As always, thank you. I never have and never will think of myself as the pinnacle of beauty... or anywhere near. It's probably better that way. If I look at my physical self in the pix, I will pick out all my flaws. And don't say there aren't any. I am human, after all. If I look at the general piece of art, then I'm quite happy with it. Art includes hair and make-up. I do not see myself as "La Bella Dea", though I try my best to wear her costume.

My husband and his friends are the only people that ever really see me drunk. My husbands friends DO NOT need to be seeing my breasts. If I'm just at home with hubby, I may be naked. Ya never know. Don't even have to be drunk for that, but it helps. It always helps.

Lillith is a good name. I can't think of anything for your new one. I've had an utter shit last couple days. Not feeling too creative. At least about naming something.



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Sweet Guitar! I have an acoustic. No real need for an electric one. I don't really play. Just accompany my singing with chords. It works.

I love the captain because he is cheap and easy. 15 year old scotch costs more than I want to pay to throw up.

Thanks for the nice comments sweetie. It's nice to know that somewhere out there, ANYwhere out there, someone kinda cares!

*hugs back*

See, I feel the same way about old bands. They're lyrics and music just don't move me at all. I love Manson's lyrics, and most of his music. Sometimes it is too noisy. I do like some of Ozzy's lyrics. I always felt he got a real bum deal on all that devil worship stuff. "Learn how to love and forget how to hate" ...? Yeah that sounds damn evil.

I detest Metalica on sooo many levels. James has always bothered me for some reason. I find him terribly ugly in a way that makes me uncomfortable. And Lars started that whole free downloading bullshit. God, I hate that guy. Free music was one of the best parts of my life. Now, its so booby trapped with worms from the record companies that it's not even worth the risk. I don't buy any more CDs now than I did when I was getting it for free because I still don't have any damn money. Lars has plenty, I'm sure. Fucking asshole. In fact, I buy fewer CDs than I ever did because I don't want to support the whole thing. I still buy some Classical ones sometimes. Classical music never made much money on CDs, so they're ok. Harmonium Mundi and Nonesuch Music don't really qualify as corporate conglomerates anyhow. I am still grieving over the loss of Kazaa and the like. I used to buy lots of CDs when I lived at home, and I was downloading like crazy. In fact, the more I downloaded, the more I bought. Now I buy none. Hmmm. Good job Lars! I hate that guy.

I don't listen to much of the new "noisy" music. I like Chevelle and Staind the best. They're very melodic and they write about things I relate to. I like songs about emotional affliction and whatnot. I'm not big into party music. No fuel, no fire. I get all I need of that from Vivaldi. His music is so sensual and sexy to me. ... and he was a priest. hehe

I could talk all day about music. Even music I don't like.

Glad things are looking up at your job. I still don't have one. And I'm not really complaining.

You need to update your journal already. hehe Look who's talking!

I am sooooo tired. Damn meds.

No, no, no...

"I do not envy the headache you will have when you awake, but in the meantime... rest well, and dream of large women."

I have that whole damn movie memorized. It's sad, really.

I've been thinking of posting all my new religious philosophy as I think of it. I don't know if I have the energy.