adenwilliam

here i am
just wasting away
my vision is blurred
not unlike
my vision of the next few years
because everyday just runs into the next
the same old shit
disguised in a different way
it seems as if everyone is fooled
and im getting pulled in
what's the difference

the joy of hopelessness is the only thing i have left
its the last thing i have
that you cannot take away
this wasteland is filled
full of poison coated apples
and sugar coated solutions
there is no room for my.....

nothing

nothing is the only gift that i have to give
so embrace it
because it is all you will ever get
my anger it hides
behind this half assed smile
that is covered by this
fuck it
the words don't come out right
so i swallow hard
i swallow what is left of
my so-called dignity
or pride
whatever its just all a waste of time

i know we would all like to think
we all have something special to offer this world.
but we dont
that was just something you were told to keep you from killing yourself at 9 years old.
its was all just said this very moment and you missed it

so here i am again
my time is ticking away
i can see it on the sad faces
of everyone that i see
their sunken eyes
they speak to me in a way that i could have never imagined
they say
there isnt much time
the end is near
get out while you can
make the best of this
then i had this dream
that i was supposed to die today
this was all just a waste of time...............