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So, I am feeling pretty down right now.

I think I smoked like 3 cigarettes in the last hour, waahh.


I really do not understand. I am 18. Every guy I have dated in the last few months has been utterly unexperienced with life and laking depth. I don't mean to sound like a smart ass, but ever since my mom's death and etc I feel like I was forced to grow up fast.

The best relationship I have ever had was when I was 16, when I dated a 21 year old. We lasted for something like over a year and it was great. I tried dating people my age, it doesn't work.

I am a very complex girl. I love affection, but I like to have my space.I live for my writing and my artwork, I analyze everything, I can be sensitive. It's impossible to find people who have the same interests as i do in this city as well. Really though, its lame that I can't find someone who likes the same music or likes philosophy or anything like that. It makes it hard for me to be interested in someone if we don't have common interests!

I really just want someone I can relate to. Why is that soo hard!

Relationships,bleh