Hey again.
Last time I mentioned a call I got that stopped me from suicide. So I thought I'd tell that story.
It was back in 2009 or 2010 I can't remember exactly.
For reference we are all 18yo (legal drinking age in Australia)
Me = Adam
Best Friend = MJ
Ex-GF = Jess
Ex-GF Bf (also MJs Gf/Ex-GF) =(forgot her name) Blondie-Locks
Place: Carousel is a mall there is a load of shops, fast food places and a cinema. Now every Thursday Mj and I would go to Carousel to hand out. We may just walk around and talk.
So as I'd said last time jess broke up with me because Blondie-Locks told Jess I was making out with her.
Went to Mjs place and got DRUNK. VERY DRUNK.
Some time after that I betrayed Mjs trust by telling something he had asked me not to. (it was to his mum and at the time I thought she knew.
Some time latter I lost my job with BGC (look it up if you've never heard of it.)
I had not talked to Mj in about a month.
I was really down and had some dark suicidal thoughts; like if I died I would no longer be a burden on my family; all my other friends had others they were close with so they didn't need me; they wouldn't miss me; things would be better with out me; Mum has other children so she wont miss me; I've cleaned my room so nobody has to do it when I'm gone;
It was a sad and lonely place; not once did I think about me; at that time I was only thinking of others; I was crying; I had tears streaming down my face; I tried to be as quiet as I could so I wouldn't bother anyone; so as I held the knife to my wrist ready to slash it and let my life end My mobile rang.
I don't know why I answered it but I did. It was MJ. The call was so short but I remember it so clearly even to this day.
MJ: Hey Adam?
ME: Yeah (I said it very softly as I was still crying and I didn't want Mj to know)
MJ: Are we still going to Carousel Thursday?
Me: Yeah (softly)
MJ: Cool. I'll See You Thursday.
Me: Yeah ok then.
MJ: We're all good?
Me: Yeah we good.
MJ: ok see you then.
MJ was expecting to see me Thursday he wanted to see me and I knew I couldn't let him down. I had something to live for.
I have told MJ in detail about what happened and how a call from him stopped me doing something I could never take back.
There is always something to live for. talk to someone if you are feeling down.
If nothing else ; Please Keep Living For Me. I may not know you but I care about you.
Adam Medic
