adamking42

Lately I have felt restless, often. I know the reason for this and more than likely when you whittle away all the excuses, its my own fault. I am trying to deal with this in the best ways I know how, but with only 4 hours of work a day and several more hours spent alone in my condo, it really does just drive me mad. Lately I've been depending on tranquilizers to try to quell this feeling, but even that doesn't work. It calms the physical anxiousness but does nothing for the mental uneasiness that set it all up. The problem, what is turning into a bit of a self-defeating cycle is that when I am feeling like this, I feel the need to be alone, not to be around people because I don't want that anxiousness to show, and at the same time, it is the lack of human contact that is causing alot of the uneasiness. Standing outside alone in the rain screaming for someone to come and answer my prayers but all I have to show for it is wet clothes and a sore throat. FTW