I am just so fucking sad right now. My bones hurt from being so lonely, lost. What is it to love when the one you love is nothing but a cold front? It has been so long. We have made it through so many things. Where did it go? Why does this happen? Why do I still care?
I wrote him an email, and spent all this time taking half naked pics in one of his shirts to add as attachements. He's been gone for a month now. I sent it five days ago, and he still hasn't opened it. Just a waste. Just a waste of all this love and passion inside of me. I'm as interesting as an old towel.
What hurts the most, is that he wouldn't fight for me. If I were to warn of leaving. Not a minute of his time. Not a bit of his energy.
I'm just an unnecessary flaw in his "rockstar" life.
I need a good fuck. An angry fuck. A lustfull fuck.
I can always daydream.
Oh well, tomorrow I'll wake up and the anger will have faded and I'll be back where I started. Neither here nor there but some awkward state of in-between.
Fuck it. G'night
I wrote him an email, and spent all this time taking half naked pics in one of his shirts to add as attachements. He's been gone for a month now. I sent it five days ago, and he still hasn't opened it. Just a waste. Just a waste of all this love and passion inside of me. I'm as interesting as an old towel.
What hurts the most, is that he wouldn't fight for me. If I were to warn of leaving. Not a minute of his time. Not a bit of his energy.
I'm just an unnecessary flaw in his "rockstar" life.
I need a good fuck. An angry fuck. A lustfull fuck.
I can always daydream.
Oh well, tomorrow I'll wake up and the anger will have faded and I'll be back where I started. Neither here nor there but some awkward state of in-between.
Fuck it. G'night
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joenobody:
it's not worth beating yourself up about it. there's more guys out there.
bigsense:
Time is the only thing that helps....Time and time alone. All the theory and philosophy in the world never changes the fact that time heals all.......It'll take time, it'll hurt for a while, but each day gets better and better. Keep your chin up and before you know it.........it just doesnt hurt as much.....