adaline

Fuck it. Suck it up and deal with your shit. I've been saying that to myself for weeks now.

I did it to myself, you know, to think I deserve something in particular. To think I deserve a thing more than what I have yet found. Work it from the ground up, you are now buried. When I thought I had worked enough to have something to show, I was wrong. The work hasn't even begun and roses have been all I have known. I was in denial, for such a long time. And to blame those that pushed to go forward with dreams are not to be blamed, for they are want to give what they could not find. It is my fault I could not look past it. Now I stare up from the ground. I feel much too old for the years I've lived. And I havn't a thing I know anymore.

I have been humbled.

Now I need a barricade.