it's never going to be enough.
my expectations of everything are higher than they should be.
so therefore,
I'm constantly let down.
this trip in two years
the one to japan,
it's my ticket out of here.
my chance to see if what we have is solid,
my opportunity to start my life over.
I'm basing everything around this trip.
if it never happens,
I don't know what I'm going to do.
maybe I'm expecting too much.
like I said
I always do.
my new meds,
I want them to be a miracle worker,
I want them to solve my problems.
I want them to help me have the perfect relationship.
but I know they won't.
yeah soI'm just bringing myself down.
my expectations of everything are higher than they should be.
so therefore,
I'm constantly let down.
this trip in two years
the one to japan,
it's my ticket out of here.
my chance to see if what we have is solid,
my opportunity to start my life over.
I'm basing everything around this trip.
if it never happens,
I don't know what I'm going to do.
maybe I'm expecting too much.
like I said
I always do.
my new meds,
I want them to be a miracle worker,
I want them to solve my problems.
I want them to help me have the perfect relationship.
but I know they won't.
yeah soI'm just bringing myself down.
Just 2 weeks till we have the keys to our brand new apartment. 2 weeks until freedom from horrible living conditions. 2 weeks until we can come up with amazing dinners and decorations and ways to keep entertained.
How does a bbq/pool party/whatnot party sound to you? Maybe....a few weeks after we move in?