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"Why don't you tell your mom, who she is?" she says. Because it doesn't matter she is comfortable with what she thinks is real. "If you knew now when you were younger" I think is the lyrics but that was in my dream last night. Well I don't regret what I didn't know but it would have been really helpful/nice/enlightening to have avoided all the selfish, destructive, and ignorant things I did. I can't make anyone know what I know or accept what my life is. I only hope that if you have the chance to help the youth walk a path of selfishness to help show them how to walk it without the minds need for comfortable.

I haven't been more selfish in my life. I'm purely looking out for myself and bettering my life. I have never not taken care of another person. Avoiding me at all cost and now all I can do is take care of me avoiding ignorance, deception, and anger.

A lot of you say me last night and I was truly blessed to have the chance to talk with you. "Wow man you are skinny", "you radiate happiness and I want to just stand here", "How do you do it?" those are some very kind words from a friend, a trashed girl, and Nico..

When I got home I was sure Becca was going to split but she came in and we had a really really great talk, sorry for Chester Becca. I love you all and the reason you are all still around me is you don't deceive me. I can sit with any of you and we have moving conversations that are really and based of helping each other be us.