acwildheart

So something hit me last night after the gig (which has to have been one of the weirdest we've ever organised in that the first two bands on brought most of their mates along only for everyone to clear off before the poor old headliners who ended up playing to about three people). I was walking down from the venue to the bus station along the side of the ring road. And, I dunno what it was, whether it was the sight of seeing such a normally busy city so eerily quiet and still but something came over me and it was like I could feel all the weight of the last few weeks lifting off my shoulders. I found myself thinking that even though life hasn't exactly been great in the last few weeks, it could be a hell of a lot worse. I'm still here, I'm still employed and even if I am single, it's not like I don't have options at the moment. And what followed that was the feeling that fuck it, I've taken the worst that life can throw at me in the last month and I'm still fucking standing.

So first off, I want to apologise to everyone on here for being such a miserable cunt these last few weeks. I've been moaning about things a stupid amount and none of you deserved to have to listen to that. I promise I'll be a bit more cheerful from now on. To anyone who's said anything telling me things will get better, thanks, it means a lot and I owe you one. And special thanks go to one person (she knows who she is) for pretty much single-handedly keeping me sane these last couple of days via the wonder of MSN. I guess talking to someone and realising you're not alone really does help sometimes.

So for a change some good things from the last couple of days:

- Payday yesterday. Hopefully this will mean no more money-related hassle.

- Because of said payday, being able to order CD's again from Amazon! Yay!

- Actually summoning up the courage to talk to the girl I like at work and having a chat with her through lunch today. Maybe this could work after all...

- Having plenty of gigs to look forward to in the next few weeks - off to see Thisgirl tomorrow night and the Barbs on Thursday. Looks like the touring season is finally kicking in again and thank Christ for that, it's been too boring lately.

- And finally, I might just be getting out of dodge and going away for a couple of days this weekend...but I don't wanna say too much more as it's by no means certain yet. But if it does happen, it'll be a much needed break from Leeds.

Hope everyone's okay - speak soon.

Yorkie