acwildheart

What's the price of glory baby?
What's the taste of pain?
Lost in this loveless wasteland
I guess I'll never get the chance again

And as I stumble to my feet
And I stagger to the door
As I crawl towards the girl
I just fall back to the floor

Baby I'm the last bandit left alive
Baby I'm the last bandit, wanted dead or alive

Dogs D'Amour - "Last Bandit" (1988)

So most of the stuff I was talking about in the last journal entry just never happened - I did go to the gig on Friday night but sadly without India...hopefully we'll reschedule that one for some time soon. And I didn't go to the wedding bash Saturday either due to most of the people I know there having other arrangements and me not fancying being stuck in a room full of people I don't really know for two hours.

Do you ever get the feeling that everything and yet nothing is happening in your life? At the end of the day it's not been an especially bad weekend - I finally saw "Fahrenheit 9/11" tonight and I really can't recommend it enough. It's about time somebody took those greedy bastards Bush and Blair outside for a good fucking kicking. I just hope the guy (or someone British with similar beliefs) decides to get a film sorted about the mess our system's in soon...it's about bloody time if they do.

Also let my inner glam metal kid loose at the weekend and got a couple of "Best ofs" by the Quireboys and Van Halen...shameless I know.

Unfortunately, there's a few things making me miserable at the moment. Top of the list is my lack of money (I currently have all of 22 to my name and payday isn't for another three weeks - something needs to be sorted there and fast) and the fact that I face a foreseeable future without my own transport which is a real pain in the arse as the place I work is a good mile or two off the bus route which means goodbye morning lie-ins and no more trips to the supermarket (the only source of food near where I work is a greasy spoon cafe which I suspect means goodbye to keeping my weight under control as well)

The fact that I've not seen emogirl for a good three weeks now is a bit of a pain as well...of all the girls in all the world I would have to fall for one from Burnley who doesn't get into Leeds much despite nearly all her mates living there wouldn't I? It's not just that but also one of the two other lads who comprise our drinking trio has also got himself a new gf recently and is currently going through that horrible nauseating "cheeping lovebirds" phase with her. The thing is, until a few weeks ago, only one of the three of us had a girlfriend and as such our nights out were strictly a "lads only" affair. Now, of course, I'm the only one who doesn't have regular female company and, because the one with the new gf seems to have her hanging off his arm 24/7, the other lad's girlfriend, who had previously accepted the whole "lads only" thing with our nights out, has suddenly started turning up to them as well. All of a sudden I feel decidedly out of the loop (believe you me it's no fun having your evenings change from a few pints and a good laugh to sitting there while the other four people you're out with are having relationship-based conversations) and it isn't good...

To summarise, things I want in my life right now:

1) A new motor to give me some independence back.
2) The ability to see the lady in my life a bit more often.
3) To start getting some regular paycheques so I can finally get all these financial problems behind me.

Not much you'd think but then...welcome to real life. For those of you who still aren't aware of this, it sucks the big one.

Laters you lot,

Yorkie