Let's forget about the questions
That we've been dragging round for years
Let's clear this smoky air between us
Then say goodbye and shed no tears
The Bluetones - "Four Day Weekend" (1998)
THE BAD NEWS
I dunno what it is but the last few days I've been feeling down. Seriously down. I think it maybe all stems from going to see the Prince's Trust about the business idea on Friday and being told basically that (a) they can't help us and (b) although they think it's a good idea they can't see how we'll get any funding from the banks for it especially with both me and primate pleading poverty at the moment.
I guess they were only being honest but it's still a real kick in the teeth considering how much time and effort the two of us have put into trying to make this idea workable over the last couple of months. I s'pose the best thing we can do is try and prove 'em wrong really.
I stare at the sky
And it leaves me blind
I close my eyes
And this is yesterday
Manic Street Preachers - "This Is Yesterday" (1994)
To make things worse, I have that horrible remorseful feeling of knowing that yet again I spent too much money this weekend from going out because it was preferable to staying in an empty house (my mum's currently away picking up my little sis from Uni). I sometimes wonder if I'm ever gonna bloody well wise up and learn from the numerous mistakes I seem to keep making over and over again in this life.
My CV is a long list of mistakes and regrets
Bad decisions, aftermaths and unmade beds
I've plastered over cracks and tried to mend what I can
But to you I'm still a wicked man
Therapy? - "Wicked Man" (2001)
Sometimes those words just seem scarily relevant to my life - my CV really sometimes does feel like a long list of mistakes, regrets, bad decisions and aftermaths (to wit - bad degree choice leads to dead end job land and a real feeling I should've thought a bit more clearly about things rather than going with what I was comfortable with way back when I was 16-18 but that's another story altogether and it'd only bore the shit out of you if I went into it here )
Obvious solution of course would be to move in with someone my age and thus have someone to chat to on a proper level (as much as I appreciate my mum's company, it's a bit difficult to talk about stuff that's bothering you to someone who hasn't been in their mid-twenties since the days of Yes and ELP if you know what I mean).
Sigh...sad Yorkie. Not good.
THE GOOD NEWS
At least one bright cloud on the horizon - last night Primitive Promotions got the go-ahead for what's possibly gonna be the biggest gig of our short lifespan thus far. It's on Monday 26th July at the Vine in Leeds - if you can make it then bloody well get there - I guarantee you won't be disappointed!!
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Today I'm off up to Middlesbrough in about an hour to see my dad for Father's Day. We're having a Chinese lunch then driving down to Whitby for some sea air. I think getting away from it all, even for a few hours, is sounding like a good idea at the moment. Hopefully I'll be feeling less sad by this evening.
Hope everyone's well - speak later.
Yorkie
That we've been dragging round for years
Let's clear this smoky air between us
Then say goodbye and shed no tears
The Bluetones - "Four Day Weekend" (1998)
THE BAD NEWS
I dunno what it is but the last few days I've been feeling down. Seriously down. I think it maybe all stems from going to see the Prince's Trust about the business idea on Friday and being told basically that (a) they can't help us and (b) although they think it's a good idea they can't see how we'll get any funding from the banks for it especially with both me and primate pleading poverty at the moment.
I guess they were only being honest but it's still a real kick in the teeth considering how much time and effort the two of us have put into trying to make this idea workable over the last couple of months. I s'pose the best thing we can do is try and prove 'em wrong really.
I stare at the sky
And it leaves me blind
I close my eyes
And this is yesterday
Manic Street Preachers - "This Is Yesterday" (1994)
To make things worse, I have that horrible remorseful feeling of knowing that yet again I spent too much money this weekend from going out because it was preferable to staying in an empty house (my mum's currently away picking up my little sis from Uni). I sometimes wonder if I'm ever gonna bloody well wise up and learn from the numerous mistakes I seem to keep making over and over again in this life.
My CV is a long list of mistakes and regrets
Bad decisions, aftermaths and unmade beds
I've plastered over cracks and tried to mend what I can
But to you I'm still a wicked man
Therapy? - "Wicked Man" (2001)
Sometimes those words just seem scarily relevant to my life - my CV really sometimes does feel like a long list of mistakes, regrets, bad decisions and aftermaths (to wit - bad degree choice leads to dead end job land and a real feeling I should've thought a bit more clearly about things rather than going with what I was comfortable with way back when I was 16-18 but that's another story altogether and it'd only bore the shit out of you if I went into it here
)
Obvious solution of course would be to move in with someone my age and thus have someone to chat to on a proper level (as much as I appreciate my mum's company, it's a bit difficult to talk about stuff that's bothering you to someone who hasn't been in their mid-twenties since the days of Yes and ELP if you know what I mean).
Sigh...sad Yorkie. Not good.
THE GOOD NEWS
At least one bright cloud on the horizon - last night Primitive Promotions got the go-ahead for what's possibly gonna be the biggest gig of our short lifespan thus far. It's on Monday 26th July at the Vine in Leeds - if you can make it then bloody well get there - I guarantee you won't be disappointed!!
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Today I'm off up to Middlesbrough in about an hour to see my dad for Father's Day. We're having a Chinese lunch then driving down to Whitby for some sea air. I think getting away from it all, even for a few hours, is sounding like a good idea at the moment. Hopefully I'll be feeling less sad by this evening.
Hope everyone's well - speak later.
Yorkie
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