acwildheart

Some call it anarchy
Some call it fun
Don't give a fuck about the law
I wanna kill someone

Cockney Rejects - "Urban Guerrilla" (1980)

I am fucked off. Seriously fucked off. You have been warned.

I am fucked off about the fact that I never seem to have time to do anything for myself these days.

I am fucked off about the fact that everything I do seems to be for someone else'e benefit and even then it's usually not appreciated.

I am fucked off about the fact that this "having to do everything for everyone else" leaves me with no free time of my own to do things I would actually LIKE to do. Yet eight hours a day at work I spend behind a desk bored out of my skull because things are "going slow" at the office I work at presently.

I am fucked off about the fact that I would like to get some time off (let's face it, the amount of work I have right now I wouldn't be missed) but because the pus-heads at the agency I'm working through, not content with paying me an absolute fucking pittance, seem intent on robbing me of all the free time they can, this isn't gonna happen.

I am fucked off that, nine weeks into this job, I am still on this shitty agency contract to begin with when I was promised a permanent contract to begin with by the people I work for within 4-6 weeks - why the fuck can't these people be honest with me about whether or not I've got a future in this job?

I am fucked off that BECAUSE of being on this contract I'm unlikely to get any time off this summer and am therefore going to have to take unpaid holiday meaning even less money assuming I'm still here in the first place.

I am fucked off because my money situation means that I might not have money to be able to go away to begin with especially pending what happens with the whole thing regarding the car accident I was in last week. Which wasn't really my fault but hey - as enough fucking people in my life have evidently decided, I make an excellent fall guy.

I am fucked off because if this is the case it means I'll have to miss Wasted and, more annoyingly, Download and thus won't meet up with all the SG people there and see all the cool bands etc.

I am fucked off because if I quit this job I'll be back on the dole and will have even less money.

I am fucked off because the lack of free time is preventing me from getting a business plan sorted for my record shop which actually WOULD finally get me out of this job and out of the clutches of the evil shitehawks at the agency permanently.

I am fucked off because the lack of a proper contract at work means I can't keep my promise that I made to my mate of being able to move out and get a place. I'm sure he understands but it's still seriously crap for me.

I am fucked off because I want some free time before I suffer a nervous bloody breakdown from all this stress.

I am fucked off. Right now I feel like I could quite easily kill someone and, believe you me, I'm not exaggerating. My advice - stay away from me, at least until the weekend.

Yorkie