actuallynotyou

I have a strong feeling that my time here on SG is rapidly coming to an end. I will dissappear and no one will notice. At least I accomplished one of my goals, posting to the boards.
So
I am going to NYC on monday to visit my, well i'm not exactly sure what she is. She was my GF but she's leaving for the...
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Four Days.

That's how long my last relationship lasted.

It was the heathliest relationship of my life.

Feeling much better today. The panic has worn off and is replaced with this dull ache. I already applied to two jobs one in NYC one in DC. I am prolly moving out of the sticks and into a real city. I want to move back to Boston. I can't take it anymore not living somewhere where something is going on. How exactly does one...
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So I just lost my job today. I didn't get fired they just didn't renew my contract which runs out at the end of May. There was talk about creating a more permanent position but that never quite made it off the ground. It feels kind of like the last time I got dumped.

Nix that, that hurt more. This is just fear. Lots of...
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"Be Yourself"

"I am myself that's the problem"

I just got back from a day trip to NYC. I went down to see Cabaret, with Debbie Gibson and Neil Patrick Harris. It wasn't bad, I wanted it to be so much more. It was my teenage fantasy come true. I have never wanted to have sex with a man more in my life and as...
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Ok so I admit it, I read the boards and dont post. I am one of the creepy people that you all talk about. Except I dont have any friends and I'm not a friend of anybody. If I had to explain why I would say fear. The overiding sense that what I have to say doesn't matter. Hi, welcome to insecurity.

I really wonder...
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I just read that thread about the kid wanting to kill himself. I have to admit i'm a cynical asshole but, fuck him. I've been that depressed, I'd wager that prolly more than half this sight has been that depressed. When I wanted to killl myself I was alone and I knew for dam sure that nobody was coming and that I wasn't in a...
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This is the sound of someone caring... ... wait for it.. .. .. wait for it...

You missed it..

I decided it would be funny to acutually write something in this thing, and prolly keep writing something until I get a comment...however long that takes.... I think I will also end every entry with a song quote, just like I do in my real life...
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