Facing Fear.
How many times have you had that spouted out to you by some shrink or friend or parent. I had an epinifiny tonight about that, a rare moment of clairity. I was always one to face my fears, once I knew what they are. For example I use to play on my roof growing up, my room had a balcony overlooking a lake and the balcony wrapped around the house onto the roof of the first floor. I would climb out onto the roof and then climb onto the second story and just sit up there and look at the lake. I remember one day i was walking up to the side of the house and I looked down at the patio, it must have been 40 feet down. I felt myself get scared, but instead of taking a step back I took on closer to the edge and promptly sat down with my feet hanging over. I wish I could do that with my fear of failure. I think eveything in my life could be traced to that one thing, the reason I'm shy sometimes, the reason I didn't do as well as I could have in school. The reason I dont start my own studio. The reason I dont go talk to that cute girl (who doesn't exist but will for the point of this story). The ones that I do not face and the ones that I won't acknowlege.
I am getting better. I know because of what's happened this past week. Starting with the SG Boston event (fear of rejection), me realizing that I dont want to be in a relationship right now (fear of being alone), to the fact that I have gotten myself an interview for a job at a studio. Its really nice to know I'm making progress in my life.
The Last 5 years of my life would make a good screen play...
How many times have you had that spouted out to you by some shrink or friend or parent. I had an epinifiny tonight about that, a rare moment of clairity. I was always one to face my fears, once I knew what they are. For example I use to play on my roof growing up, my room had a balcony overlooking a lake and the balcony wrapped around the house onto the roof of the first floor. I would climb out onto the roof and then climb onto the second story and just sit up there and look at the lake. I remember one day i was walking up to the side of the house and I looked down at the patio, it must have been 40 feet down. I felt myself get scared, but instead of taking a step back I took on closer to the edge and promptly sat down with my feet hanging over. I wish I could do that with my fear of failure. I think eveything in my life could be traced to that one thing, the reason I'm shy sometimes, the reason I didn't do as well as I could have in school. The reason I dont start my own studio. The reason I dont go talk to that cute girl (who doesn't exist but will for the point of this story). The ones that I do not face and the ones that I won't acknowlege.
I am getting better. I know because of what's happened this past week. Starting with the SG Boston event (fear of rejection), me realizing that I dont want to be in a relationship right now (fear of being alone), to the fact that I have gotten myself an interview for a job at a studio. Its really nice to know I'm making progress in my life.
The Last 5 years of my life would make a good screen play...
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stickyrice:
It's pretty good when you can just say, "I'm scared of this" and make note of it the way you would make note of anything else, and then continue. A lot of courage consists in just that, I think. 
disappearhere:
You should write one then. A screenplay. Of the last five years.