actuallynotyou

Ok SGBoston.
This went much better than I had expected. Had a wonderful time, made some new friends.It was nice meeting everyone, even the people i didn't really talk to (aka the people that came late).
Now what's really on my mind:
I was up in Vermont last night for dinner. We were in the middle of nowhere at this farmhouse that my friends parents got. So five of us went up there, which was way the hell removed everything. It was wonderful to be up there in middle of nowhere just looking up at the stars, which look so beautful when you get away from cities and I just felt really at peace. This is also when it occured to me that I am in no place to have a serious relationship. Which I seemed to have stumbled into. I feel like I should talk to her but even approach it feels like I'm an asshole. "Hey we need to talk".. Anything you say after that is going to be filted through the "you're breaking up with me" filter. I dont want to see anyone else, I don't like anyone else. I just dont want to be in super-serious relationship land.

I was up until 8am, again. It wasn't insomnia this time. I drank too much coffee last night after dinenr and I couldn't sleep. But I was actaully quite productive. I used to time to work on the album that I'm making of my own stuff and I recorded some roughs of a couple songs. Jesus I miss not working in a studio, this home recording thing is less satisfing..