acidwerm

i'm closer than ever before on giving up my dreams, quitting school, and just not worrying about anything else. i know other people get frustrated like this, but it seems all i do i can't satisfy myself.. my art class whenever i give something up for review gets bashed and torn to shit, when i post something on here very, very few people seem to care. i needed hope someone to point me in the right direction and its all been a waste of time. i spent more money than i've ever seen on class and supplies, just to feel like its been a waste. i just want to give in right now. its caving down on top, every step feels like a mountain. its not that its to difficult i can handle that. its just that it seems like i'm wasting time and someone else would benefit more from it than i can. we'll see maybe i'll do like always and paint just one picture that makes me happy and not worry about the others. i've had two quotes running through my head lately they seem to be the only thing keeping me going. the first is Thomas Edison "Be courageous. I have seen many depressions in business. Always America has emerged from these stronger and more prosperous. Be brave as your fathers before you. Have faith! Go forward!" The second i can't remember quite as well, its from Rob Zombie, it goes something like "i'll kepp pushing forward, because everyone else, will eventually quit."

Maybe i'm just looking way to into this as usual