Ok, anyone who saw the last entry.... try to forget about. I'm not going to let what he did get me down. Granted it is pretty fucked up and sad but... fuck it, it happened, I wasn't there to prevent it, so three people died.
Do I think that something like this would have happened if I were still there?? Sure.
Do I think I could have prevented it if I had been there?? Yes!
Is getting depressed and drunk gonna change anything?? NO!!
David was a good friend, but .... I dunno, am I a cold hearted bastard if I say shit happens and lets move on?? Or does that just make me emotionally dead?
I have come to this decision after realizing that I started drinking on Thursday BEFORE work. I was ok Thursday, but add lots more drinking and no sleep... I was so fucked up Friday that it is a fucking miracle that I wasn't fired on the spot. I made it until quitting time (fore everyone else) I was running behind...big surprise... so the shift manager came in and basically told me if I didn't have a damn good reason to be in the shape I was, I was gone.
So I told him the story. The bastard even made me go into the other three guys who are gone. He finally told me he thought he understood, and (thankfully) left me alone to work in peace. So I got home, took a ice cold shower and crashed. I slept the sleep of the Just.....how did that happen?... Decided to lay off the booze for a while and went to watch a movie.
David was a true Drunk. He drank a fifth of Old Crow a day.... for 5 weeks, then on the sixth he'd let his stomach stop bleeding.
I tend to be a sporadic binge drinker; I don't drink often, but when I do I usually drink a LOT. It has occurred to me that I shouldn't have survived this. I took stock of my alcohol reserves and I, over two days, consumed the following. Jack Daniels 1.75Liter. Absolute Vodka 1.75Liters, Gentleman Jack 750Ml, Dewars Private reserve 750ML, Baileys Irish Cream half of a 750ML, Kahluha half a 1.75Liter.
Now I admit I have the mass (ok fatness) to soak up some booze but... Shouldn't I be dead?? Maybe that's what I wanted.. I don't know. The worse thing is I didn't even have a hangover to teach me a lesson.
So in honor of the fallen, and so I don't make people think I'm any crazier than they already do. I'm not gonna drink for a good while, and I'm not gonna post anymore negative shit for a while. So don't bail out on me yet.. the Light has returned and the Darkness is receding for a time.
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Ok. that is the official end of all things negative and depressing for a while.
I just got back from seeing The Devils Rejects.
Fucking awesome movie. It was a great pice of work; The violence was well done and rather graphic, but and no point did it feel like it was there just for a scream. The nudity was there but believable in the circumstances. Did I mention the soundtrack was great? listen to 105.9 (local) or your classic rock station and you'll hear a chunk of the music.
I never realized just how stunningly beautiful little Mrs. Zombie is. I had only seen her from a few White Zombie album covers and the Never Gonna Stop Me video. Hmmm lets see, Natural Blonde, Beautiful, hypnotic voice,, and well, if you know then you know and if you don't then go see the movie.
I will be adding this movie to my collection when it comes out.
I got bored and played around with my camera today. I'm glad I didn't make a full offer to a certain person to play photographer... I really do need a few goodies first.
Hell, its a SLR... maybe I should actually=y get a few other lenses. It works great for outdoors, but I havent programmed the contrast setting for indoors, which is why my new pic looks kind of yellowish. Hey, it's my day off, fuck it.
Acid
Do I think that something like this would have happened if I were still there?? Sure.
Do I think I could have prevented it if I had been there?? Yes!
Is getting depressed and drunk gonna change anything?? NO!!
David was a good friend, but .... I dunno, am I a cold hearted bastard if I say shit happens and lets move on?? Or does that just make me emotionally dead?
I have come to this decision after realizing that I started drinking on Thursday BEFORE work. I was ok Thursday, but add lots more drinking and no sleep... I was so fucked up Friday that it is a fucking miracle that I wasn't fired on the spot. I made it until quitting time (fore everyone else) I was running behind...big surprise... so the shift manager came in and basically told me if I didn't have a damn good reason to be in the shape I was, I was gone.
So I told him the story. The bastard even made me go into the other three guys who are gone. He finally told me he thought he understood, and (thankfully) left me alone to work in peace. So I got home, took a ice cold shower and crashed. I slept the sleep of the Just.....how did that happen?... Decided to lay off the booze for a while and went to watch a movie.
David was a true Drunk. He drank a fifth of Old Crow a day.... for 5 weeks, then on the sixth he'd let his stomach stop bleeding.
I tend to be a sporadic binge drinker; I don't drink often, but when I do I usually drink a LOT. It has occurred to me that I shouldn't have survived this. I took stock of my alcohol reserves and I, over two days, consumed the following. Jack Daniels 1.75Liter. Absolute Vodka 1.75Liters, Gentleman Jack 750Ml, Dewars Private reserve 750ML, Baileys Irish Cream half of a 750ML, Kahluha half a 1.75Liter.
Now I admit I have the mass (ok fatness) to soak up some booze but... Shouldn't I be dead?? Maybe that's what I wanted.. I don't know. The worse thing is I didn't even have a hangover to teach me a lesson.
So in honor of the fallen, and so I don't make people think I'm any crazier than they already do. I'm not gonna drink for a good while, and I'm not gonna post anymore negative shit for a while. So don't bail out on me yet.. the Light has returned and the Darkness is receding for a time.
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Ok. that is the official end of all things negative and depressing for a while.
I just got back from seeing The Devils Rejects.
Fucking awesome movie. It was a great pice of work; The violence was well done and rather graphic, but and no point did it feel like it was there just for a scream. The nudity was there but believable in the circumstances. Did I mention the soundtrack was great? listen to 105.9 (local) or your classic rock station and you'll hear a chunk of the music.
I never realized just how stunningly beautiful little Mrs. Zombie is. I had only seen her from a few White Zombie album covers and the Never Gonna Stop Me video. Hmmm lets see, Natural Blonde, Beautiful, hypnotic voice,, and well, if you know then you know and if you don't then go see the movie.
I will be adding this movie to my collection when it comes out.
I got bored and played around with my camera today. I'm glad I didn't make a full offer to a certain person to play photographer... I really do need a few goodies first.
Hell, its a SLR... maybe I should actually=y get a few other lenses. It works great for outdoors, but I havent programmed the contrast setting for indoors, which is why my new pic looks kind of yellowish. Hey, it's my day off, fuck it.
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Thanks.
I am sorry about your friend. Be careful out there, I'm sure he & the others aren't in a hurry for you to join them.
I agree entirely with you regarding speeding tickets. I thought the constitution guaranteed "Life, liberty, and the Pursuit of Happiness at speeds up to 15 above the posted limit"