and i tell myself some things just weren't meant to be.
not having roommates puts me in a much clearer frame of mind. less frazzled. less social clutter to bog down my CPU. it reminded me to look at what i really want from a man. and...it made obsessing over luke seem really ridiculous. a few of my favorite things in a man include knowing when to be bold, having a good sense of communication, relational savvy...which come with experience...he strikes me as terribly inexperienced datingwise. which is a big turn-off for me given it ruined me and jesse. so it brought me full circle to: if he acts, great. if he doesn't? he probably wouldn't have lasted against me anyway.
as for other bizarre happenings...i lit candles for kody last night...and his candle went out of control, burning really fast and high, dripped wax out of the holder, onto the table and the floor...very very unusual. which i know must mean something's up. dunno what though. my mom called this morning and told me that she'd had signs posted at the shelter etc and that stewart would look around for kody in SM and weho to see if they can get ahold of him and send him towards my mom, so that they can get him a place to stay etc. strange, strange.
talked to max last night. first time i've seen him even slightly insinuate that he had any sort of attraction to me ever. i think he must've at some point, but this is the first time he's dared go on record about it. and it was a very timid admission...but it felt good nonetheless. so. as usual, male prospects look sorta good? i guess i should feel liked or summat. i'm really just sleepy. theeee end.
not having roommates puts me in a much clearer frame of mind. less frazzled. less social clutter to bog down my CPU. it reminded me to look at what i really want from a man. and...it made obsessing over luke seem really ridiculous. a few of my favorite things in a man include knowing when to be bold, having a good sense of communication, relational savvy...which come with experience...he strikes me as terribly inexperienced datingwise. which is a big turn-off for me given it ruined me and jesse. so it brought me full circle to: if he acts, great. if he doesn't? he probably wouldn't have lasted against me anyway.
as for other bizarre happenings...i lit candles for kody last night...and his candle went out of control, burning really fast and high, dripped wax out of the holder, onto the table and the floor...very very unusual. which i know must mean something's up. dunno what though. my mom called this morning and told me that she'd had signs posted at the shelter etc and that stewart would look around for kody in SM and weho to see if they can get ahold of him and send him towards my mom, so that they can get him a place to stay etc. strange, strange.
talked to max last night. first time i've seen him even slightly insinuate that he had any sort of attraction to me ever. i think he must've at some point, but this is the first time he's dared go on record about it. and it was a very timid admission...but it felt good nonetheless. so. as usual, male prospects look sorta good? i guess i should feel liked or summat. i'm really just sleepy. theeee end.