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like most people, I feel a great desire to find a significant other...but I am finding it very very hard to have trust for someone after I've been cheated on and taken for granted by multiple women in my past. I feel like I've just been so paranoid since dealing with my most recent ex. After catching her out with another guy, and recently finding out some other shit I just feel so violated. She was someone that I loved and I thought I would be with her forever.

Our relationship ended in a blink of an eye, yet, the damage was done and it will last a lifetime.

But since her, I've found myself being so paranoid towards the women I've been with and I feel like its been getting worse and worse. I've noticed little hints and clues that if I would have been paying attention when I was with my ex, I would have noticed that something was up a lot sooner. This has set me into analyst mode and I've noticed things with the women that I've been with since. This has caused me to push away from them and end things. I feel like I'm just soo paranoid and over-analyzing things, but the big problem is that my instincts have been right every single time so its hard for me to just discount them as being craziness.

I hate being paranoid and so damn observant of the world, Ignorance is bliss.



On the brighter side, I just saved a bunch of money on my car insurance by switching to GEICO.