acedia

my situation is interesting. so here it goes.
boyfriend of 3 years. we break up. we start hanging out again and basically act how we were when we were together. now we have the word "I'm single" parading out of our mouths. ex wants to date other girls. no denying this because I've seen posts about it. about 3 or 4 girls like him. 1 actually tells me she does. stupid of her to talk to me about it if she knew what I thought about it. Me: comfortable with the idea of getting to know eachother all over again and seeing how things work by living by myself and going out on dates with other guys if I feel like it.
bottom line: jelously tends to fill me up just a little little bit when i see him writing to girls about dinner and movies. oh and having that one other girl telling me she likes him.
is that wrong.
or normal.
or am I just some jelous bitch who needs help.
because thats probably just it.

oi.

I'll set up a dating service for myself. so then I don't feel so ick.

p.s. update on apartment: i painted the walls except for about a foot or 2 from the ceiling because I am not that tall. I forgot my stepstool too