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So I'm not allowed to dance. not saying I want to for a job per se but it would be a little extra hella easy money that I don't have right now plus I know a decent amount of the girls there. M said she wanted to and I'm talking to the boss tonight about getting her an audition. E thinks its cool.which bugs me so its like ok my good friends dance and he goes to their clubs, not to mention goes to clubs where they don't work and spends money on the chicks and thinks its cool and rowdy that they're up there, but if I mention me wanting to do it now and again its the worst idea to him. He WON'T ALLOW IT. fucking retarded. I can't tell if he would really be ashamed or if its more because he doesn't want to have to have his parents find out about me having this job again.
It irratates the shit out of me. for crying out loud he had no problem with it before, I met him while I was working there and the only reason I stopped was because I broke my leg.
Sometimes i just want to say either let me do what I want or if you go to another strip club you can sleep on the couch. Why don't you put that money back in your pocket and take me on a date or something.
Or would that cut into video game time?
fucking dumb.