i want to scream or cry or something but there really are no words for this and i don't know what to do with it because usually i write something or other but now i can't even think of a place to start so i just sort of started in the middle and now i'm testing out the emergency broadcast system but it's not broadcasting...
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aj_paradiselost:
Very cool pic Mer. You look like a moon child. I'm just talking out of my own personal level of impending excitement, for, well, things. The way your dark hair melts into the blackness around you and the paleness of your wicked skin is illuminated. Moon child. I do believe this is my favorite pic of you yet, mysterious, esoteric and imaginative. Hmmm, I can only imagine what IS behind your smiles Tigress. One thing is fucking sure, if you are smiling I'm sure it is genuine. Either because someone is speaking obvious bullshit to your face and you are trying your best to remain respectful and not tell them they are complete morons, or someone has done something or said something so fucking stupid that you pretend that you missed it, and I doubt you really miss much. Anyway Mer, catch you L8er babe...........Aj
stiggy56:
Thank you! Sorry I thought my away message was dream land. I've been sick and laying up mostly. But I'm feeling a little better today 
oak:
that doesn't seem to have come out right at all
Looks like Philly is back on, I finally heard back from Eric. It's a 12-hour drive from here, which I'll make on Tuesday, so maybe try to track you down Wednesday?
Looks like Philly is back on, I finally heard back from Eric. It's a 12-hour drive from here, which I'll make on Tuesday, so maybe try to track you down Wednesday?
there is a dresser in the woods. it would have made splendid fuel for the fire; it's old, dry wood crackling and snapping. but instead it has been carried to the woods that it may decay amongst its sisters. it was left covered with a few leaves, perhaps more blanket it now. rains have soaked it. winds have buffeted it. i wonder, does it stand...
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deadmansparty:
What goofy pic? 
aj_paradiselost:
Whoa Mer. I can usually follow you babe but you left me wayyyyy behind. Enjoy your strangness babe. We all need it. And it really isn't fair when people strive to understand. Sometimes its just gotta be, this is what I've done, it is only for me to understand and fuck you. Ha. I've always loved those trains of thought. Choo fucking choo choo choo. L8er babe........Aj
The vast linoleum expanses stretch out before me
Fluorescent lights flicker
There is no warmth.
The chemistry teacher is a drunk.
Hormones dance as hormones do
And we are left looking,
Me and you,
At the rays and the linoleum
And the bulbous red nose
Of the man who would be chemist.
He is death, and we know it.
Lust and fear and
Locker combinations...
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Fluorescent lights flicker
There is no warmth.
The chemistry teacher is a drunk.
Hormones dance as hormones do
And we are left looking,
Me and you,
At the rays and the linoleum
And the bulbous red nose
Of the man who would be chemist.
He is death, and we know it.
Lust and fear and
Locker combinations...
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spott:
Very very ....
wow - sorry, flashback. What was I saying?
Ah yes, chemistry. I like to burn things.
T.C.D.
wow - sorry, flashback. What was I saying?
Ah yes, chemistry. I like to burn things.
T.C.D.
oak:
I don't think I'm going to make Philly ... I haven't been able to get in touch with my friend that I was going to visit / stay with, so unless I hear from him by Sunday I'm going to skip that leg of my journey, unfortunately.
doubtful you'll ever see
the likes of me
enter your tent...
be glad.
only a prelude
am i
to what will come
and then...
not even your teeth
so white
not even your shoes
so shiny
not even your... hat
floppy, moppy, grass...
turn away
breathe, if you can
go in sin
go in awe
a child knows better
not a word.
shrugged off
un-settled...
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the likes of me
enter your tent...
be glad.
only a prelude
am i
to what will come
and then...
not even your teeth
so white
not even your shoes
so shiny
not even your... hat
floppy, moppy, grass...
turn away
breathe, if you can
go in sin
go in awe
a child knows better
not a word.
shrugged off
un-settled...
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spott:
There is an unsolved Cube in front of me ... frustrating me to no end ... and I must TEAR IT TO PIECES and make it all in order again!!! (BTW - love your posts ... but they often leave me without words to comment 
)
T.C.D.
)
T.C.D.
oak:
"polish your teeth
and your shoes
don your hats and
be off!
your time is done."
That's my favourite part. That's just fucking great.
and your shoes
don your hats and
be off!
your time is done."
That's my favourite part. That's just fucking great.
thoughts in my head
still swim
i have no words for you
swarms of ideas
feelings
think in emotion
yes
did i get carried away?
not this week
all there is to say
put a muffler on it -
sweet sheets on the breeze -
mind wanders...
sleep with the lillies
or the frogs?
trickle away
i am poison
pain, in the flesh
claws in...
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still swim
i have no words for you
swarms of ideas
feelings
think in emotion
yes
did i get carried away?
not this week
all there is to say
put a muffler on it -
sweet sheets on the breeze -
mind wanders...
sleep with the lillies
or the frogs?
trickle away
i am poison
pain, in the flesh
claws in...
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hellsforheroes:
There is not a reason under the sun for any "thank you's" as the feeling is as mutual as possible........I might be quite possibly in love with these lines from your writing...well, jealous at least..."all there is to say
put a muffler on it -
sweet sheets on the breeze -
mind wanders...
sleep with the lillies
or the frogs?"......Ironically because I was swilling and manifest with lillies and frogs this weekend, but as always my meaning isn't yours, my referenced tidbit is incomparable to your brain child...and your context. And, words should hold more bearing then the simple surface, as to which yours always do. Some day on some planet, we should spin like tops...hoping to never see the edge of the table...praying upon a god of centrifical force...for blasphemy...wits and evens
put a muffler on it -
sweet sheets on the breeze -
mind wanders...
sleep with the lillies
or the frogs?"......Ironically because I was swilling and manifest with lillies and frogs this weekend, but as always my meaning isn't yours, my referenced tidbit is incomparable to your brain child...and your context. And, words should hold more bearing then the simple surface, as to which yours always do. Some day on some planet, we should spin like tops...hoping to never see the edge of the table...praying upon a god of centrifical force...for blasphemy...wits and evens
deadmansparty:
You moved two
times this week
times this week
step aside
you're not wanted here
not your kind
run, hide
else they'll hunt you
pink-skinned sack of water
so juicy...
i digress
some cling to their pain
they spread it
it cannot be taken without consent
you see the difficulty
never-ending pain
perhaps we ease it for a moment?
eleven, thirteen, forty-two
numbers - me? no.
another me
signs everywhere
wherever signs are sold...
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you're not wanted here
not your kind
run, hide
else they'll hunt you
pink-skinned sack of water
so juicy...
i digress
some cling to their pain
they spread it
it cannot be taken without consent
you see the difficulty
never-ending pain
perhaps we ease it for a moment?
eleven, thirteen, forty-two
numbers - me? no.
another me
signs everywhere
wherever signs are sold...
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redfirefaery:
how's the a/c?
deadmansparty:
Sometimes I forget everything
isn't about what I'm feeling at every
moment, things were cleared up and
I liked the last line the best
isn't about what I'm feeling at every
moment, things were cleared up and
I liked the last line the best
the energy is muted
what to drink?
the nexus point polluted
yet the dolphin played
some sparks survive
what next?
beyond the gates
the energy flows free and pure
or does it?
a dream, perhaps
a wish?
no longer dark nor light
the question is simpler
smack the donkey
i meant mule...
the journey of your lifetimes
begin again
what to drink?
it's not just...
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what to drink?
the nexus point polluted
yet the dolphin played
some sparks survive
what next?
beyond the gates
the energy flows free and pure
or does it?
a dream, perhaps
a wish?
no longer dark nor light
the question is simpler
smack the donkey
i meant mule...
the journey of your lifetimes
begin again
what to drink?
it's not just...
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oak:
Oh, and thanks for the good wishes!
cosyne:
I read The Grapes of Wrath. I'm pretty sure that book has changed my life. Goddamn -- what a rude awakening....
you felt soft, like snow
your feathers so light
and like a tiny sun
your body's warmth ebbing away...
you spoke to me
i spoke to you
the dog simply did what doggies do
i should have known
your chirps were so clear
"pain" you said
and "panic"
but i looked in the ivy
and up in the bush
while the dog - she knew...
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your feathers so light
and like a tiny sun
your body's warmth ebbing away...
you spoke to me
i spoke to you
the dog simply did what doggies do
i should have known
your chirps were so clear
"pain" you said
and "panic"
but i looked in the ivy
and up in the bush
while the dog - she knew...
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contessakatarina:
Emotional Blackmail is difficult to eradicate - I can identify with being attracted to the more "difficult and mentally unstable kind" in the past - I was doing the whole saviour thing, when really I should have put more energy into saving myself rather than wasting years on psychotic men - anyway, glad you got a break there my sweet. I have just read your latest poem: beautiful melancholy - I could feel your sympathy and compassion in this piece - thank you
redfirefaery:
perhaps you have the right of it
hey you changed your pic! i like the new one.
kisses abound
hey you changed your pic! i like the new one.
kisses abound
out of the frying pan
into the place where lost loves live
fuck it. i'm going away for the week. i don't need to write anything! hahaha!
so why don't i feel any relief? oh, the relief comes in the writing. dammit. but i can't just plop down and write. i need to be standing on the beach with a gun in my hand... no......
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into the place where lost loves live
fuck it. i'm going away for the week. i don't need to write anything! hahaha!
so why don't i feel any relief? oh, the relief comes in the writing. dammit. but i can't just plop down and write. i need to be standing on the beach with a gun in my hand... no......
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nightvixen:
how have you been sweetie?
miss you........
miss you........
contessakatarina:
I love your stream of consciousness - always in the moment, real, self analysing, never self aggrandising...Now don't you get too moon burnt honey - some day light won't hurt you either..(Yeah, this is rich coming from a Goth Princess..I know) Blessings for your mini break - x