abyssia

do we create our own souls?
We are born into this world as animals with little more to our character
than instinct and need.
Each of us develop ideas, experience tragedy and Joy, and meet challenges
with Triumph and failure.
The transformation of self through experience is one of building the soul,
and not always for the rosy, euphemisms associated with positive spiritual
development.
Some of us build monsters out of our lives.
Some of these monsters we slay through our inner transformations, while
some of these monsters slay us.
We want so badly to believe that the process always ends in redemption even
in the face of lives clearly wasted and destroyed.
Some create redeemers that forgive us and exalt us in an afterlife.
While others create a cycle of rebirth that allows all failure and
incompletion to be processed into a complete experience of all necessary
life transformations, like an amusement park you must keep going back to
until you have ridden every ride and purchased every concession, no ticket
unpunched.
Some of us even take up employment in this perpetual circus of existence,
believing ourselves to be mentors, rulers, and warriors that now work for
the universal god machine.
The marks of our employment emblazoned in our ego's as the embellishments
of deities; wings, scepters, flowers, weapons, divine clothing, and all
sorts of anatomical absurdities that separate us from the mundane mantle of
our objective lives.
The only truth of our mastery of transformation being the artifacts of our
activity in the world and the meaning that reverberates in the minds and
hearts of those who witness our legacies.
The soul ends as it began, a cleave in matter that changes the landscape
but disappears as it is absorbed in a perpetually transformed world.

-B.D.M.

(My honey has a way with thoughts, no?)