abyssia

I don't really "do" Christmas....I don't really "do" any holiday...I'll go to any party I'm invited to or go eat at someone's house if they invite, but I never make any plans...yesterday I hung around the house and cleaned up a bit...ate too much(normal food not Christmas fair)...and worked out some(ab wheel and punching bag)...now my abs are killing me...oh well...

with regards to the thought...I think I was thinking more along the lines of physics and computers...I was thinking what level of computing power it would take to know every gene and what possibilities they represented(like the risk taking gene) and then be able to track everything(every encounter, every experience) that a person has and then be able to predict what they would do...

as far as what prompted the thoughtwho the $#@% knowsas I have stated before in my journalI think way too muchway too much

I feel bad for you babe cause sometimes I think there is so much that you just don't seem to realize about this life. As I've said before, we are much more than the sum of our flesh. You cut and you bleed because you don't realize that you are so much more beneath the flesh. You aren't looking to die and you aren't insane. There is a level of spirituality that is there beneath the surface that you are unable to to touch, to reach. While we are in these fucking flesh suits we have to play thier game. You are discontent, I know, you are not pleased by the way things have gone in this existance? Well no shit. We have on one level or another chosen to play thier game. If you can survive on some level, no matter how small, but on some level of contentment on this realm then embrace it. To struggle against it too much causes insanity. You are walking a path of two parts. One part what you know is truth and the other is just the reality of what has become your reality. Why do you see Tigress in your past, why not, fish, insect or something of a weaker nature? I'll tell you. It is because you know the sum of your soul is something greater than your flesh. Be strong Demoness, you have to be because when we all let them convince us that we are insane, if we let them think that we are the disease among them, and being complacent is not the true disease then we have let them win. We fail mankind. Cry if we must be we are not fucking insane.