he was close
almost
wipe the table
move the stairs
into me
he nearly came
open the gates?
close the gates.
nothing to fight?
self
drippingly i sit
i spin
the trail of a snail
a slug
no salt please
trust
i am no enemy
i tried to be what i am not
run away
how many faces do i have?
none
i am not
but i am!
one?
pick a number
wait in line
a new face you'll see from time to time
hooks and claws
slice the meat
a heart laid bare
ash, no... dust!
i saw the shoe
rolled it up and smoked it
she leads the way
the gates. open? closed. fantasy...
naught but a mirror
beyond the abyss
sparkling
singing
lulling
sleep now, the journey is long
stationary, be still!
be still my beating heart?
fear, withdrawal. he is gone.
lashings for me.
helpless, hopeless, useless. another face.
good morning class, please turn to page zero.
follow along as i read aloud.
almost
wipe the table
move the stairs
into me
he nearly came
open the gates?
close the gates.
nothing to fight?
self
drippingly i sit
i spin
the trail of a snail
a slug
no salt please
trust
i am no enemy
i tried to be what i am not
run away
how many faces do i have?
none
i am not
but i am!
one?
pick a number
wait in line
a new face you'll see from time to time
hooks and claws
slice the meat
a heart laid bare
ash, no... dust!
i saw the shoe
rolled it up and smoked it
she leads the way
the gates. open? closed. fantasy...
naught but a mirror
beyond the abyss
sparkling
singing
lulling
sleep now, the journey is long
stationary, be still!
be still my beating heart?
fear, withdrawal. he is gone.
lashings for me.
helpless, hopeless, useless. another face.
good morning class, please turn to page zero.
follow along as i read aloud.
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And yes, on the subject of tears, I suppose I can cry in the presence of my Scott - although I've only done that once, a couple of weeks ago when Stripey died. Usually I do still keep such emotions to myself - in the shower, or in bed in the night. I don't know why that is... I've just always been that way.
Anyway, thanks for your birthday wishes. I was NOT looking forward to this one at all. Feared it for years. But now it's here, and what can I do about it.... ignore it.
Much love.
I just have a bunch of stuff spew<sp> out of my head, my fingers don't keep up very well...lol
Its really a feeling that comes over me. I don't try to right anything. Same thing with my art work. I wish I could purge more often.
I am very well with being me, ty. There are a few things that need to be changed, but its my fault they are there, so I live with it. I gave up trying to find myself, cause I was already there.
I will post some writing thursday. Not from me but something that someone who is very dear to me.
Have a great day!
Your beautiful!!!