he said i'm the bit of sanity in his day.
no one has ever said that. i cried. i am crying. i am always the insanity.... i'm the one who needs caring for. i'm not. not to him.
i feel appreciated. i feel strange. i feel like my shell has been shattered, my masks burned and yet i feel free and like i've been seen for once, if only for a moment, as myself. i think it should be terrifying, but somehow it isn't. i feel such gratitude. if only for the words. even if in his exhausted state he didn't mean them exactly as they sound.... hearing them. hearing them.... extraordinary. amazing. bliss. yes, bliss.
god, what have i done to myself?
no one has ever said that. i cried. i am crying. i am always the insanity.... i'm the one who needs caring for. i'm not. not to him.
i feel appreciated. i feel strange. i feel like my shell has been shattered, my masks burned and yet i feel free and like i've been seen for once, if only for a moment, as myself. i think it should be terrifying, but somehow it isn't. i feel such gratitude. if only for the words. even if in his exhausted state he didn't mean them exactly as they sound.... hearing them. hearing them.... extraordinary. amazing. bliss. yes, bliss.
god, what have i done to myself?
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daekrys:
motherly instinct kickin in?
aj_paradiselost:
I don't think there is anything wrong with finding words like that blissful. If he can say that to you than he truly appreciates you babe.......everything you say is a mirror of Sanity, Truth, a metaphoric art. I think it is really fucking cool that you are appreciated. Make him a roast with mash potatoes and steamed carrots, hell, that's what I'd want.