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Hello Mer, my company has been wicked fucking busy trying to make deadlines. I've been working like mad. I just wanted to tell you hello, and wondering how have you been? Anyway, I have to go. Large paychecks and wicked early bedtimes. Fuck those checks, no shit..........L8er Demoness.........AJ

yeah i changed it again .. the quest for my perfect p pic is ongoing .. i'm not the most photogenic ya know

mer <3 <3 <3
thanks doll.

you should sneak onto aim or yahoo and tell me
just hit me through sg

aww no problem .. i think i may like the reactions to it more than writing it ...

because not many people leave comments .. i need to be stroked sometimes ..

err so i can be motivated to write more

oh nevermind

~ Alien

Hey babe, as for as I'm concerned when it comes to fucking showing forth, Emotion, Passion and pain then you are totally it doll. When you fucking write there is so much PASSION in what you betray that it is completely no holds barred. Its like " Alright fuckers this is how I feel today, dig it or don't love it or leave it. " But you write full of discontent. Who the hell couldn't relate to discontent? Any fucker out here that might live at home, that might see a darker future and might be scared to dare. I, like you are completely aware of our personal cages and when someone actually writes all the shit out then it REALLY does have a wicked empowering effect. A weakness exposed to the light is no longer subdued within darkness. So fucking keep your journal goddamn explosive and I'll keep loving it doll.........L8er..........AJ

hey .. ya know i don't even like posting there any more .. ever since i found a plagiarized piece that was from a site that i moderated ..

sooo .. it was a good evening .. beth caught me singing to tunes on the sly and kept teasing me all night ..

~ Alien

Hey Mer, I love it when you seem to write with your teeth clenched Demoness........L8er.......AJ

LOL Mer, nothing like highschool, for the fucking good and the bad...........L8er........AJ

This site really drains my attention span for deprecating words...but never your deprecating words...in all honesty, I think a contrived persona and or some expansive abstractions might take the introspection to a new level of expression....it may help to change the viewing filter of the prose, you know expand the irony...same old same old......hey, I still havent decided if I like epitaffy or not...I'll probably know in like a year...hahaha...a year...I have such a fucked relationship with my words...I just have no way of being honest with myself...i try...and try...and try...to no avail...so I just keep jibber-jabbering away...metaphor slinging.

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Hot as always..........Not just talkin about da weather .....

Very cool pic Mer. You look like a moon child. I'm just talking out of my own personal level of impending excitement, for, well, things. The way your dark hair melts into the blackness around you and the paleness of your wicked skin is illuminated. Moon child. I do believe this is my favorite pic of you yet, mysterious, esoteric and imaginative. Hmmm, I can only imagine what IS behind your smiles Tigress. One thing is fucking sure, if you are smiling I'm sure it is genuine. Either because someone is speaking obvious bullshit to your face and you are trying your best to remain respectful and not tell them they are complete morons, or someone has done something or said something so fucking stupid that you pretend that you missed it, and I doubt you really miss much. Anyway Mer, catch you L8er babe...........Aj

Thank you! Sorry I thought my away message was dream land. I've been sick and laying up mostly. But I'm feeling a little better today

that doesn't seem to have come out right at all

Looks like Philly is back on, I finally heard back from Eric. It's a 12-hour drive from here, which I'll make on Tuesday, so maybe try to track you down Wednesday?

What goofy pic?

Whoa Mer. I can usually follow you babe but you left me wayyyyy behind. Enjoy your strangness babe. We all need it. And it really isn't fair when people strive to understand. Sometimes its just gotta be, this is what I've done, it is only for me to understand and fuck you. Ha. I've always loved those trains of thought. Choo fucking choo choo choo. L8er babe........Aj

Very very ....

wow - sorry, flashback. What was I saying?

Ah yes, chemistry. I like to burn things.



T.C.D.

I don't think I'm going to make Philly ... I haven't been able to get in touch with my friend that I was going to visit / stay with, so unless I hear from him by Sunday I'm going to skip that leg of my journey, unfortunately.

There is an unsolved Cube in front of me ... frustrating me to no end ... and I must TEAR IT TO PIECES and make it all in order again!!! (BTW - love your posts ... but they often leave me without words to comment )

T.C.D.

"polish your teeth
and your shoes
don your hats and
be off!
your time is done."

That's my favourite part. That's just fucking great.

There is not a reason under the sun for any "thank you's" as the feeling is as mutual as possible........I might be quite possibly in love with these lines from your writing...well, jealous at least..."all there is to say
put a muffler on it -
sweet sheets on the breeze -
mind wanders...
sleep with the lillies
or the frogs?"......Ironically because I was swilling and manifest with lillies and frogs this weekend, but as always my meaning isn't yours, my referenced tidbit is incomparable to your brain child...and your context. And, words should hold more bearing then the simple surface, as to which yours always do. Some day on some planet, we should spin like tops...hoping to never see the edge of the table...praying upon a god of centrifical force...for blasphemy...wits and evens

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