i feel like i should write something but guess what? there is nothing.
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there is one
the other me
i am the other
to this one
dangerous, this humanity
and so fleeting
so fragile
hearts and heads shatter
splatter
squish
a neck to be kissed
caressed
to be adored
snapped
limbs to hold and
and to give
to squirm with
tossed aside with the trash
that one
violence
pain
fear and hatred
for what?
for humanity
this one...
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the other me
i am the other
to this one
dangerous, this humanity
and so fleeting
so fragile
hearts and heads shatter
splatter
squish
a neck to be kissed
caressed
to be adored
snapped
limbs to hold and
and to give
to squirm with
tossed aside with the trash
that one
violence
pain
fear and hatred
for what?
for humanity
this one...
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aj_paradiselost:
Fuck babe, you put more pics up? Why didnt you tell me? Well I guess that might have been a bit ummm, narcassitic to do so huh? Yeah, I know I spelled that wrong too but I'm not too worried about it. Smart and beautiful, trust me doll, you are a rarity, no shit............L8er.........Aj
_gone_:
yup the fire across from me was totally fucked up .. the situation that led up to it was even more fucked up .. freaked me out that shit like that happened so close to my home
would have been worst if the place was on a lower floor .. the apartments above would have been in jepardy .. wtf fuck was he thinking .. i guess he was out of his melon to be able to do shit like that in any case
~ Alien
would have been worst if the place was on a lower floor .. the apartments above would have been in jepardy .. wtf fuck was he thinking .. i guess he was out of his melon to be able to do shit like that in any case
~ Alien
fuck it. i'm posting it. the bats of change seem to think it's a good idea ;o) purge baby, purge!
with me
not for me
he came but
but did not claim
simple
he will not take
what he knows he must relinquish
he will take
whatever is offered
simple
so full
almost found
now empty
yes, utterly lost - again
so fucking simple
not...
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with me
not for me
he came but
but did not claim
simple
he will not take
what he knows he must relinquish
he will take
whatever is offered
simple
so full
almost found
now empty
yes, utterly lost - again
so fucking simple
not...
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guesiwaspunkonce:
nahhh I would never voluntarily move to L.A., but I have done the small town thing and the medium sized city thing, small town blows, mostly just hick bars or some shit like that, and since I am in a university city all the bars have some nieche market they are going for, i guess i could just paint my room brown, light some candles and get drunk by myself......i'm not above that, I'm really not
oops, i know i just broke the "no edit" rule, but i just made a huge mistake,
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nahhh I would never voluntarily move to L.A., but I have done the small town thing and the medium sized city thing, small town blows, mostly just hick bars or some shit like that, and since I am in a university city all the bars have some nieche market they are going for, i guess i could just paint my room brown, light some candles and get drunk by myself......i'm not above that, I'm really not
oops, i know i just broke the "no edit" rule, but i just made a huge mistake,
[Edited on Mar 15, 2005 1:51PM]
drrtyrocstr:
HELP!!!!
he asked me to look
to see
what the future holds.
"nothing" they say
The End.
they are not him
as i am.
exhaustion gnaws at me -
i held him
i saw
he will not know himself.
he will learn -
learn to be.
new
oh, that phoenix thing is tired -
but apt
spiritual fire gets out the nastiest of stains
the spear...
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to see
what the future holds.
"nothing" they say
The End.
they are not him
as i am.
exhaustion gnaws at me -
i held him
i saw
he will not know himself.
he will learn -
learn to be.
new
oh, that phoenix thing is tired -
but apt
spiritual fire gets out the nastiest of stains
the spear...
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hellsforheroes:
as you do, collecting love in urns.....or was that a music box...god save my brain.
_gone_:
brilliant as usual
i'm feeling a little better now .. thanks for the link .. i actually do know how to google .. but my mind has been hazy of late
~ Alien
i'm feeling a little better now .. thanks for the link .. i actually do know how to google .. but my mind has been hazy of late
~ Alien
insecurity, he said
no
pain, loss, emptiness, longing
not insecurity
long ago, memory of insecurity
dream priestess, dream
cold sheets
the body records
a breeze
one little slip
life's blood drips, splashes, pools
offered on the altar of severity
what a mess -
memories of dreams
dreams of a future
fantasies of fur and freedom
flickering firelight casts memories
memories of futures undone
light is...
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no
pain, loss, emptiness, longing
not insecurity
long ago, memory of insecurity
dream priestess, dream
cold sheets
the body records
a breeze
one little slip
life's blood drips, splashes, pools
offered on the altar of severity
what a mess -
memories of dreams
dreams of a future
fantasies of fur and freedom
flickering firelight casts memories
memories of futures undone
light is...
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guesiwaspunkonce:
wadda ya mean too old?? what are you like 40???? HAHAHAHAHA....ohhh shit you aren't 40 are you? FUCK!! I am such an idiot
guesiwaspunkonce:
SHIT!!! I better not crack you up too much or I will have to glue you back together (insert rimshot) HAHAHA- thank you, wow what a great audience, I will be here all week.......I went to far didn't I?? Ah forget it I am just gonna go to bed
and no worries, no where near 40, but you prolly don't need anyone to tell you that
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SHIT!!! I better not crack you up too much or I will have to glue you back together (insert rimshot) HAHAHA- thank you, wow what a great audience, I will be here all week.......I went to far didn't I?? Ah forget it I am just gonna go to bed
and no worries, no where near 40, but you prolly don't need anyone to tell you that
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hellsforheroes:
don't you wish sometimes you could forget about the tethers so as to pull away from them without knowing their weight, almost like pretending it is gravity pulling you, and not your own heart....
abyssia:
Networks Operations Team is mixing bizness with leather.
March 1st Is National Self-Injury Awareness Day.
Does that really mean anything? If so, what? I mean, I am quite aware of the fact that I have and continue to self-injure. Maybe I can wear some special jewelry for the event? Perhaps a specially colored bracelet? Or a t-shirt with "Fuck the State, Self-Mutilate!" emblazoned on it?
Fucking Fuck Fuck.
I am feeling hatred and...
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Does that really mean anything? If so, what? I mean, I am quite aware of the fact that I have and continue to self-injure. Maybe I can wear some special jewelry for the event? Perhaps a specially colored bracelet? Or a t-shirt with "Fuck the State, Self-Mutilate!" emblazoned on it?
Fucking Fuck Fuck.
I am feeling hatred and...
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jayenh:
I think it's part of National Personal Shortcomings Awareness Month.
deadmansparty:
Were you reading the back of The Breakfast Club dvd?
It's good you're feeling things, I enjoy anger quite a bit.
Just behave with all the self inflicting and start mental
others, it's much more progressive
It's good you're feeling things, I enjoy anger quite a bit.
Just behave with all the self inflicting and start mental
others, it's much more progressive
she gave
she gave too much
you understand
more than he wanted
more than he needed
smothering even, with
too many questions
too many fears
too much of her
he took
he took all that he could
you know how it is
he took what she gave
he took a bit more
hungry, he seemed
focused
intense
strong, he was
she is spent
he is...
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she gave too much
you understand
more than he wanted
more than he needed
smothering even, with
too many questions
too many fears
too much of her
he took
he took all that he could
you know how it is
he took what she gave
he took a bit more
hungry, he seemed
focused
intense
strong, he was
she is spent
he is...
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aj_paradiselost:
You know Demoness, the wild fucking thing is that you are going to fucking explode one day. So much emotion, so much
longing to break free of the cage. Fucking hell, I can't wait to see what happens when you do. Fucking world look out for the Mer. L8er doll..............Aj
longing to break free of the cage. Fucking hell, I can't wait to see what happens when you do. Fucking world look out for the Mer. L8er doll..............Aj
yuriel:
*sigh*
yeah.
beauty.....
stop torturing us.
with your taunts and your chains and your authoritarian monopolies.
yeah.
beauty.....
stop torturing us.
with your taunts and your chains and your authoritarian monopolies.
winged whispers fill the air
beat the air
float on...
a demon grasps
the fury is returned by
by his angel
they claw and kiss
cling and battle
find the secret
the sole secret
secret of the soul
urgency, sweet urgency
desperate to be one
unguent is spread, shared, imparted, imbibed
whispers of love
of lust
of completion
wings of flesh and wings of air...
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beat the air
float on...
a demon grasps
the fury is returned by
by his angel
they claw and kiss
cling and battle
find the secret
the sole secret
secret of the soul
urgency, sweet urgency
desperate to be one
unguent is spread, shared, imparted, imbibed
whispers of love
of lust
of completion
wings of flesh and wings of air...
Read More
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deadmansparty:
I just use HP as visual reference. I relate to Charlie Brown
and Charles Bukowski. I want to be at peace and thrive in chaos. I just want to laugh, be warm and comfy
and Charles Bukowski. I want to be at peace and thrive in chaos. I just want to laugh, be warm and comfy
nightmares:
Go to one of my past posts and look for the link to Matrix Ping Pong.
Paradox
desperate-
it's a very lonely word
for a very lonely soul
in a very lonely world
desolate-
that one comes a bit closer
with a little more clarity
the feeling is conveyed
she thought to hold on
she meant to remain
she never imagined she'd slip so far
her cry is muffled
her thoughts muddled
her emotions - ah, her emotions
sometimes at the...
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desperate-
it's a very lonely word
for a very lonely soul
in a very lonely world
desolate-
that one comes a bit closer
with a little more clarity
the feeling is conveyed
she thought to hold on
she meant to remain
she never imagined she'd slip so far
her cry is muffled
her thoughts muddled
her emotions - ah, her emotions
sometimes at the...
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drrtyrocstr:
No, YOU ROCK!!!!! 
drrtyrocstr:
1:33am can't hold out much longer......
Thanks for the condolences. I might have something more to write once the goddamned funeral happens. That should be sometime this week. Joy.
Oh yeah... Happy Valentine's Day. Heh.
Oh yeah... Happy Valentine's Day. Heh.
daekrys:
Happy Corporate Endoresed Generic Holiday. ::snicker::
I start work in 3 hours, I'm kinda nervous, but I'm gonna rock their socks off....
I'm gonna have the scheduel 10pm-6am Sunday night thru Thursday night. Too bad I'm not one of those kids that goes out and parties on the weekend, cuz this schedeul would be perfect. Whatever though, I'm just glad to be working finally. Thank you for all of your support. And I just gotta say, I can't believe that i passed that fucking drug test, amazing.
So if you're looking to talk you'll have to catch me on one of those two days off. Because now I really am a slave of the Industry. But from what I hear Boston Scientific is a really good corp. to work for, that they have great benefits and whatnot.
I hope that everything is going good, and if not that it get's better for you. Hugs & Kisses.
I start work in 3 hours, I'm kinda nervous, but I'm gonna rock their socks off....
I'm gonna have the scheduel 10pm-6am Sunday night thru Thursday night. Too bad I'm not one of those kids that goes out and parties on the weekend, cuz this schedeul would be perfect. Whatever though, I'm just glad to be working finally. Thank you for all of your support. And I just gotta say, I can't believe that i passed that fucking drug test, amazing.
So if you're looking to talk you'll have to catch me on one of those two days off. Because now I really am a slave of the Industry. But from what I hear Boston Scientific is a really good corp. to work for, that they have great benefits and whatnot.
I hope that everything is going good, and if not that it get's better for you. Hugs & Kisses.
Grandpa is dying. We went to watch.
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yuriel:
i know how that goes
then its us someday....
*shrugs*
i know how that goes
then its us someday....
*shrugs*
aj_paradiselost:
I miss you Demoness
miss you beautiful!